Chapter 66#

Occasionally, people passed by on the flat seaside main road. A young couple rode a tandem bicycle rented from the ferry pier for a joyride. When passing the bench, they turned their heads curiously to glance at them, perhaps thinking they were an open same-sex couple.

“I should be the one asking you, Fu Jinchi, what exactly do you want to do? Do you still want to sleep with me? Sorry, your timing is wrong; we can’t do it for now. Whatever adult games you want to play, we can’t play them either. It would be faster for you to find someone new.”

“Zeng Zhanpeng told me two days ago that you might have found out. I also guessed whether you would come looking. But even if you came looking, I couldn’t do anything.” Yan Zishu said with some complaint, “I wanted to hide, but I had to be able to do it. Seeing how many things I had to pack to go back, I gave up. When I first came to the island, I didn’t even move anything myself; it was all Zeng Peirong’s friends who helped me carry them. They carried big and small bags and didn’t let me touch anything. In the end, I just brought myself on the boat.”

“I couldn’t even snatch them over and say, ‘No need, I’ll do it myself.’ Because I really couldn’t bear the weight. Even if I insisted on showing off, I was afraid I would end up in the hospital again and cause more trouble for others. You don’t know how ashamed I was at that time, wishing I could find a crack in the ground to crawl into. Until now, it turns out it’s not easy to leave even if I want to. I can only think, come if you want, I can’t control it anyway.”

“Even sitting here talking to you is because I got lost in the morning, climbed half a mountain, and can’t walk anymore now.”

“Can you also be considerate? My condition is not suitable for worrying and exhausting my mind, or breaking up and getting back together with you again?”

“It’s… my fault.” Fu Jinchi’s heart was about to break. “I will take good care of you in the future.”

“Don’t give me that.” Yan Zishu refused categorically. “You have a criminal record.”

Fu Jinchi’s eyes were red, not letting him see his face, and he couldn’t defend himself. It was all the sins he had committed himself.

Insisting on playing with life, heh, looking back and finding that people didn’t want to play anymore, silly, right? Yes, how skilled he was. Words like “I will treat you well” came out of his mouth easily. He said so last time, but what was the result? It was that result they both knew.

Fu Jinchi didn’t even dare to mention, touch, or look back at it.

Promises made on occasion were really light and valueless.

Unfortunately, he had already been stamped with the red seal of “never again” by Yan Zishu.

However, after all, Fu Jinchi was a habitual offender in prying into people’s hearts. He understood again that Yan Zishu would not easily complain about these negative emotions to others; he would only hide them and chew on them silently. But Yan Zishu was only willing to treat him as an object of venting and willing to show his weak side to him. Didn’t this prove again that subconsciously, he felt that he was still different from others?

In fact, Fu Jinchi thought, hate didn’t matter. If Yan Zishu hated him, it might not be a lasting emotion.

Two people tied together, whether love or resentment, going round and round, a lifetime would pass quickly.

Fu Jinchi thus returned to the ground, and his heart strangely calmed down.

He rubbed his chin against Yan Zishu’s temple and sniffed his hair: “Actually, you should change your thinking. Everything you encounter now is what I owe you. So you have to claim it back from me and never let me go in this life.”

Yan Zishu couldn’t muster up the spirit: “Then forget it. I don’t think I have that much ability.” He thought for a moment, “Aren’t you quite rich? How much do you think your life is worth? Why not cash it out for me? That’s the most practical.”

Fu Jinchi fell silent again and his expression changed again.

He knew that Yan Zishu was limited by his not-so-abundant savings and terrible self-esteem. Since the injury, he had muddled along in many places. The ward and the care worker were all improvised. Although someone helped him, it all depended on whether others would be kind. He was simply eating from hundreds of families. Could it be the same as being carefully taken care of by his own people? What kind of body could he cultivate? Did it leave any root of disease?

The more he thought about it, the more he couldn’t recover. Fu Jinchi was serious. Yan Zishu should collect debts from him until he went bankrupt.

Yan Zishu thought, It seems this was said wrongly again.

I should have said one less sentence earlier.

When Fu Jinchi was unpredictable, it was not suitable to communicate.

The shadows on the ground gradually shifted, and the sun was about to catch up again. Yan Zishu wanted to change to another chair but was too tired and lazy to move. When a person is tired from walking, they often hold on with one breath. Once they sit down, this breath relaxes, and drowsiness will climb up quickly.

And he wasn’t feeling very well actually. The temperature difference in the seaside climate was large. It was a bit chilly when he went up the mountain, but now the ultraviolet rays were particularly strong, making him dizzy from the sun, and his head throbbed with swelling pain. Fu Jinchi kept holding him like this, making him sweat profusely from the heat.

Yan Zishu felt that his emotions should have stabilized: “I have to go back. I haven’t taken my noon medicine yet.”

Fu Jinchi was extremely reluctant to let go, but had no reason to stop him: “I… I’ll see you off.”

He refused to be rejected and followed Yan Zishu step by step back to the sanatorium.

When they arrived, they were stopped by the front desk. Fu Jinchi hadn’t registered as a family member and couldn’t go in directly.

Yan Zishu felt that he didn’t need to pay attention to this kind of thing. Anyway, Fu Jinchi always had plenty of ways.

His head was buzzing, and it was difficult to maintain etiquette. He just wanted to go back and lie down directly.

Fu Jinchi hurriedly caught him and said gently: “Come down again after taking the medicine, okay?”

Yan Zishu asked: “What for? I want to rest for a while.”

Fu Jinchi said: “I’ll change you to a better room.”

Yan Zishu hesitated for a moment but still declined politely, saying he was used to the current one.

This beautiful sanatorium was positioned as high-end; otherwise, rich people wouldn’t live here. But services naturally fall into different grades.

Like Old Mr. Ding lived in a suite, where family members could stay together when visiting. Yan Zishu’s room was the most basic single room with an independent bathroom. For him alone, it was enough to live in and had the highest cost-effectiveness. Anyway, he didn’t need to throw a party.

Fu Jinchi acted arbitrarily. While Yan Zishu went upstairs to his room for a nap, the service level he enjoyed had been upgraded to a premium suite.

And it was tidied up in the fastest time, just waiting for him to wake up to move in.

In order not to disturb his rest, Fu Jinchi, who had received family treatment, waited in the recreation room.

But Yan Zishu slept for a long time and didn’t come down.

It was almost dinner time. Zeng Peirong messaged and called him but got no reply, so she came directly on the way and met Fu Jinchi.

At this time, Fu Jinchi was also restless, considering whether to go and wake him up.

The two and the nurse found Yan Zishu in the room with a fever, his cheeks abnormally flushed.

Yan Zishu walked on the mountain for a bit too long in the morning. He dressed according to the summer daytime specifications, which inevitably appeared thin. The mountain wind was soaking cool, and at noon he returned to the scorching sun again. Alternating between cold and hot, he caught a cold and burned up as soon as he lay down.

It might also be related to the fatigue he had accumulated recently. He seemed too impatient with his recovery progress.

Fu Jinchi carried the dazed Yan Zishu to the newly changed suite and placed him on the bed in the bedroom.

The stretcher bed pushed over was not used. Fu Jinchi only felt that he was much lighter than before.

The room was equipped with basic medical equipment, and the nurse nimbly set up an IV drip.

Zeng Peirong stood aside watching worriedly. Fu Jinchi motioned her to talk in the living room. The two pulled out chairs by the sideboard and sat down. Fu Jinchi said seriously: “I want to thank you for taking care of William. I owe you a favor.”

Zeng Peirong became very embarrassed, saying it shouldn’t be counted like this. They were spontaneous originally, and now they were all friends.

She told Fu Jinchi how she met Yan Zishu in the hospital and the details of his life in the past few months. Zeng Peirong said to thank God’s arrangement. For Fu Jinchi, let alone thanking God, he would donate a church if asked.

After seeing Zeng Peirong off, Fu Jinchi returned to the bedroom, drew the curtains, and sat by the bed. Yan Zishu had already woken up.

Their eyes met. Yan Zishu asked with some annoyance: “See? Just like paper.”

Fu Jinchi said gently: “It will be fine, just poor resistance. Sleep a little longer, you’ll be fine when you get up.”

“When I get up, can I not see you again?” Yan Zishu said. “I clearly said I didn’t want to change rooms, but when I woke up, I wasn’t in the original place. Can you not intervene in my life so self-righteously and arrange everything according to your own meaning?”

And disappear at some unknown time.

He took a breath: “I really tried my best to be polite when I saw you today, because I didn’t want to offend you, and didn’t dare to offend you too much. It doesn’t mean I still want to develop something with you. Is it that unless I say something nasty directly, you won’t leave? …Can you get lost?”

Yan Zishu got a little excited as he spoke. His throat tickled for a while, and he coughed for a long time, unable to suppress it, shaking his brain with pain.

Fu Jinchi knew that people who were sick were emotionally sensitive, so he hurriedly said: “Rest, don’t be angry, I’m leaving right now.”

Before leaving, he dawdled, adjusted the temperature in the room, and tucked Yan Zishu in. Yan Zishu lost his temper inexplicably and fell into self-loathing again. What people say on the surface is not necessarily what they really think in their hearts. He couldn’t distinguish whether he was angry for the sake of being angry, or seeing Fu Jinchi, the helplessness suppressed for half a year exploded at once.

Just like a child who bumped into something outside and didn’t feel anything at first, but when he saw his parents, he couldn’t help but cry loudly. But it was too ridiculous and cowardly for such a big person to compare with a child. He couldn’t cry, so he had to lose his temper.

Yan Zishu’s cold had more serious consequences than ordinary people, and soon turned into mild pneumonia.

Fu Jinchi didn’t dare to show his face again, but he let Lily come over. Yan Zishu felt very sorry again: “Really, you don’t need to come over either.”

“It’s okay, what’s there to it.” Lily said easily. “My bonus this month has exploded, and the bank just arrived in the morning, so I’m particularly easy to talk to now. Besides, when you lost your temper that day, the boss didn’t dare to move. It’s really one thing conquering another. Tell me, is there anything more enjoyable at work than watching this? You can do it twice more.”

Yan Zishu sat up and smiled: “I was a bit confused from the fever when I woke up that day. I felt particularly annoyed if anyone touched me.”

“You don’t need to think too much. Mainly, he is indeed not quite normal.” Lily said. “Although he asked me to go along with whatever you say, I actually seriously think so too. In the past two months, I’ve even looked up which psychiatrist to recommend to him.”

She even really opened the memo and showed Yan Zishu the webpage she had clipped.

Yan Zishu smiled faintly, imagining the scene of a cold-blooded monster like Fu Jinchi confronting a doctor.