How Can I Get Rid Of Him on Danmei AI Translations

Chapter 1

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Chapter 1#

I don’t know where to start.

I used to have a boyfriend, and I was the one who pursued him. Let’s call him A. The first time I saw A, I was a freshman. On the school basketball court, he was so dazzling, running and jumping, casually making a few three-pointers that caused all the girls in the audience to scream continuously. He happened to look exactly like my type, so that day I went crazy and bought a bottle of mineral water to wait for him on the sidelines. Of course, there were too many girls wanting to hand him water that day, and I couldn’t squeeze in at all.

Chapter 2

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Chapter 2#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-16 14:34:00

In the end, I really hate the character setting my mom chose for me when she gave birth to me: “crying out loud as soon as there’s a quarrel.” It’s not cool at all!!!

[1st Floor] Big White Is Confused: Hahahaha, reading this made me laugh out loud.

[2nd Floor] wnjh_0518: Your mom didn’t choose it for you, you chose it yourself when you were reincarnated.

Chapter 3

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Chapter 3#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-17 21:11:21

After graduation, A and I had a breakup scare. Since I dare to write about this, I’m not afraid of you guys chasing me with ten-meter-long machetes. Because… because… I was the one who actively asked to get back together +_+

Our university is also in City X. My home is here, my sister is here, so naturally, I wanted to stay here after graduation. But A wanted to go to City Y. At that time, he gave many reasons: City Y is more developed with more opportunities, he wanted to strive more while young, etc. Maybe he really had these reasons for wanting to go to City Y, but after I gave up the job I found in City X and came to City Y with him, I discovered that B also came to City Y after returning to the country. I think this is the real reason why A wanted to come to City Y regardless of everything.

Chapter 4

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Chapter 4#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-18 21:31:01

Let’s talk about the last straw that broke the camel’s back.

After starting work, holidays are really pitifully few, not to mention I’m in my first year of employment. The holidays are so few that they’re gone after a few naps. Annual leave is only five days, plus the weekend, a total of seven days. I planned to go to a quiet place alone with A, just to see the sea and bask in the sun.

Chapter 5

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Chapter 5#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-19 21:21:17

After getting ashore, I couldn’t move. A carried me on his back and ran all the way to find a doctor. There was no hospital on the island we were on, only a few small clinics selling medicine. The nurse bandaged Fu Yan’s arm and checked my ankle. Suspecting a bone dislocation, she did some simple cleaning and immobilization and suggested I go to the hospital on the nearest island for treatment.

Chapter 6

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Chapter 6#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-21 23:20:15

I have forgotten how the conversation with Fu Yan ended that day. Probably he felt guilty, while I was calm and composed.

After Brother Egg and Fu Yan left in the evening, A stayed in the hospital to accompany me. After all, this was just an island, and medical facilities were not developed enough. There was only a sofa for A to sleep on. I was really tormented that day, suffering both physically and mentally. I fell asleep quickly leaning against the bed. Waking up in a daze in the middle of the night, I saw A sitting on the sofa, holding a pen and paper, checking his phone while writing something. The paper was densely written. I checked the time; it was already past one o’clock at night. This couldn’t be a travel guide, right? He was usually too lazy to check. In the past, I would say where to go and he would say okay. I couldn’t help asking what he was doing.

Chapter 7

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Chapter 7#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-23 22:10:15

I removed his hand that was pinching my face, turned to look at him, my voice very calm: “Pei Hao, let’s break up.”

I don’t know if he saw my determined gaze in the dark room.

Pei Hao obviously choked for a moment, asking with a puzzled expression: “Why?”

Still don’t know why. I smiled bitterly in my heart. Pei Hao, is your acting superb or do you have no IQ? At this point, you can still pretend to be innocent and ask me why?

Chapter 8

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Chapter 8#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-25 21:32:06

The next morning when we woke up, we had to take a plane back to China. Pei Hao talked to me as if nothing had happened yesterday, packed my luggage for me, and helped me to breakfast. It was the last buffet breakfast for the six of us at the hotel. After getting the cast, I was like a disabled person. Pei Hao seemed to think that not only was my leg lame, but my hands were also broken. After getting food for me, he even wanted to feed me bite by bite.

Chapter 9

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-25 23:03:21

By the way, someone asked me last time how I would spend the Spring Festival this year.

Don’t worry about me being alone. This year my dad is bringing his boyfriend, no, his husband back to spend the New Year with me.

I’m going to pick them up tomorrow and take them around to play. I might update less in the next few days.

Chapter 10

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-28 00:18:32

Happy New Year everyone, did you watch the Spring Festival Gala? Anyway, I didn’t…

Today I made dumplings with my dad all afternoon, and then my sister and Uncle Li (my dad’s partner, ahem) cooked a dozen dishes. Uncle Li is a master chef, my dad is really lucky. Actually, my sister and my dad have always had a bad relationship. Maybe gathering together today was also to make me happy. In the evening, my brother-in-law also came. 5 people celebrating the New Year together. My house hasn’t been this lively for a long time, happy (€€€€€€€€€€€€)€€€€.

Chapter 11

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Chapter 11#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-03 22:31:09

Two days later, Brother Egg called me.

He asked cautiously if he could come to see me. I guessed Pei Hao called him to plead for him.

“Brother Egg, you reminded me before that the one Pei Hao likes is not me,” I couldn’t block Brother Egg like I blocked Pei Hao, so I could only explain to him slowly, “You saw what happened in the sea that day. From beginning to end, he only loved Fu Yan. It’s impossible for me to continue living with him.”

Chapter 12

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-07 14:11:00

I regret mentioning that Pei Hao is a game streamer. I hope everyone stops sending me private messages asking if so-and-so is Pei Hao. I won’t answer, and I don’t want this post to involve real life. Thank you!

[1st Floor] Transparent Sunflower: Okay, Xiaoxi, whatever you say is right (Obedient.jpg).

[2nd Floor] Monk Dharma Name Hua Jia: Xiaoxi has spoken, everyone stop guessing blindly, disperse if you should.

Chapter 13

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Chapter 13#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-12 21:09:02

I sat on the bed, opened the iPad, and was almost blinded by the wallpaper on the screen.

It was a photo of me kissing Pei Hao on the cheek right after taking a big bite of ice cream, my mouth not even wiped clean. Both of us were smiling very happily. That time we went to the amusement park, and when we came back, I changed that photo to the iPad wallpaper.

Chapter 14

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-15 13:34:27

I really feel my IQ is a black hole. I exposed Pei Hao as a game streamer myself, and was recognized by a colleague…

If I were in a palace drama, optimistically I could survive for 10 minutes…

Can I still continue to update? (€€€€€€€€€€)

[1st Floor] Monk Dharma Name Hua Jia: Don’t be nervous. Although you revealed some information, we don’t know your colleague, nor do we know which game streamer Pei Hao is, right?

Chapter 15

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-18 16:01:29

My sister was very angry that I didn’t tell her about my leg fracture and scolded me in the car. My brother-in-law pleaded for me while driving. But I know if it were my sister who fractured her leg, she wouldn’t tell me either. Because we are siblings after all, printed from the same mold, equally stubborn, equally unwilling to trouble each other.

Chapter 16

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Chapter 16#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-20 20:51:16

In the meeting on Monday morning, the manager indeed transferred me to Group 3. Old Wang’s expression was very satisfied.

The work of Group 3 is to upgrade some of the company’s previous software, which is easier than Group 1. Of course, the year-end bonus is not as high as Group 1.

The leader of Group 3 is relatively young, in his early thirties, and looks easy to talk to. Let’s call him Old Zhou, although he is not old. Old Zhou and Old Wang have completely different styles. Old Zhou was quite satisfied with me. On Monday afternoon, he asked someone to familiarize me with the work in the group and said I could go to him anytime if I had anything.

Chapter 17

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Chapter 17#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-23 21:27:57

One day after work, I saw a car of the same model as Pei Hao’s downstairs at my workplace. I panicked, thinking he came again? When I saw the license plate clearly, I couldn’t help but mock myself. Pei Hao said “I love you” and you took it seriously. He was just putting on a show to see if you were still that stupid, ready to pour your heart out to him just because he said a few nice words.

Chapter 18

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Chapter 18#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-26 20:12:09

When I was in City Y, Pei Hao’s pestering every day made my attitude towards him worse and worse. So after returning to City X, he didn’t follow me every day like before in City Y, but came to my workplace or my door every few days. Every time he brought me some food, or some gifts he bought casually. If I didn’t accept them, he would leave them at my door. I took many food items to feed stray cats and dogs the next day. As for some expensive gifts, I couldn’t accept them nor leave them there. They piled up at the door for a few days, surprisingly no one took them away. I had to put them back in the house, preparing to return them all to him when he figured it out one day.

Chapter 19

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-03-01 22:08:59

I sat on the bed spacing out, and unknowingly fell asleep. When I woke up, I found it was already the next morning. I don’t know when I was covered with a quilt, probably Pei Hao did it.

It seemed Pei Hao didn’t go back all night, busy banging around outside, seemingly making breakfast. After a while, he pushed open the door of my room and whispered: “Xiaoxi, come out for breakfast.”

Chapter 20

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[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-03-05 21:01:23

I feel like I’ve rambled on about a lot of random things. Actually, the original intention of starting this thread was to ask everyone how to get rid of someone I’ve liked for many years. But I accidentally said a lot, and everyone has been so cooperative, I’m really very grateful…

So, how can I get rid of a scumbag top I’ve liked for many years?

Chapter 21

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Chapter 21#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-03-9 15:47:11

Continuing on, Jin Yu disappeared for another month after that day. Guess where we met again?

It was actually in our company!!!

Novels wouldn’t dare to write like this…

It was that competition I mentioned. Didn’t the boss invite some company executives and his friends to watch? Jin Yu was one of his friends.

I felt he looked much more spirited after not seeing him for a while, completely different from the last time at his restaurant. He was wearing a suit, sitting in the judges’ seat in high spirits. He was also surprised when he saw me, but immediately smiled at me, and I nodded to him too.

Chapter 22

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Chapter 22#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-03-19 20:32:10

I don’t know what I did wrong in my life to be humiliated in public like this, and for something that doesn’t exist at all.

I only remember the water sliding down my face, blurring my vision, and my clothes slowly getting soaked.

After splashing the water, Cheng Yi clapped his hands and warned me: “If you pester my brother again, this is just the beginning.”

Chapter 23

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[23rd Floor] Just Old Zhao: A child without a mother is really like a blade of grass no one loves T_T

…………

[30th Floor] Hui Se Jiu: Hug Xiaoxi, my heart aches for you, child. Next time we meet, I’ll treat you to a big meal.

[31st Floor] [OP] Just Registered A Random Account: A big meal is possible. Actually, I feel very ashamed that you know these things.

Chapter 24

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Chapter 24#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-04-05 23:09:31

I forgot how I replied to Pei Hao that day.

I seemed to have said nothing. Should I ask him not to hold a grudge against Jin Yu? That seems unfair to him.

Since as I said, Pei Hao and I have no connection anymore, then on what basis can I ask him to do anything for me?

Chapter 25

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Chapter 25#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-05-7 20:49:18

Today I finally received the offer from the first school, happy!

Wanted to tell you guys immediately~

Have books to read, haha~(￣€€￣)~

Wait and see if there will be offers from other schools!

Are there any little angels studying abroad? Can you tell me what to prepare in advance?

[1st Floor] Simba: Prepare money (€€_€€).

[2nd Floor] unbelievable,: Depends on where you are. In big cities, you don’t really need to prepare anything. If going to the village, bring whatever you can. Eating instant noodles might be a luxury there (don’t ask me how I know).

Chapter 26

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Chapter 26 Extra €€ One

“Come over next week to have a meal with Uncle Zhou and meet his daughter,” Song Wanqin said cheerfully on the phone, “The girl is beautiful, gentle and virtuous, just graduated from the UK…”

“Mom, I don’t have time,” Pei Hao interrupted Song Wanqin abruptly, his tone carrying a hint of resistance, “Can you stop worrying about this in the future?”

It would have been fine if Pei Hao hadn’t said anything, but this sentence poked Song Wanqin’s sore spot.

Chapter 27

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Chapter 27 Extra €€ Two

There are no classes in the US between Christmas and New Year’s Day. Mo Xi didn’t plan to return to China, so he flew to the city where his dad was.

This was Mo Xi’s first time visiting his dad’s home in the US. A detached small villa with five or six rooms, a unique small backyard, and a big yellow dog.

It looked like a quite comfortable life.

Chapter 28

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Chapter 28 Extra €€ Three

A week later, when Mo Xi was worrying about tuition fees, a large balance suddenly appearing on his bank card startled him. At first, he thought someone was using his account for money laundering. After checking the transaction record, he found it was transferred by Dabai.

At this time, Dabai’s WeChat also popped up: “Transferred 300,000 to you, did you receive it?”

Mo Xi couldn’t believe it. When did Dabai become so rich? That tone was as calm as if transferring 300,000 was like transferring 30 yuan.

Chapter 29

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Chapter 29 Extra - Four

Since parting during the Spring Festival, Shane had been appearing more diligently at the library. Every time he came, it was to borrow or return books, so even if he had other motives, Mo Xi couldn’t really say anything.

Shane would bring Mo Xi small gifts, intentionally or not, such as a cup of coffee on a weekend morning, or one or two interesting little gadgets. Small enough that refusing would seem too distant, yet accepting them felt like falling into a trap.

Chapter 30

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Chapter 30 Extra - Five

After returning from the United States, Pei Hao felt weary and listless. Many nights, he dreamed of Mo Xi laughing and whispering softly to someone else, then looking at him coldly and saying emotionlessly, “No, he’s not my friend.”

Every time this happened, he would wake up from the dream in a cold sweat.

People say that after a breakup, time will slowly make you forget everything. Pei Hao didn’t expect that after being broken up for so long, he would still be trapped in memories, insomnia, and pain, in an endless loop.

Chapter 31

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Chapter 31: Extra €€ Six

On a summer evening, cicadas chirped in the trees. Mo Xi walked out of the library, looked up at the starry night sky, felt the cool breeze brushing past his ears, and was in an exceptionally good mood.

This was his last day working at the library. Last week, he found a permanent internship at a game company. The pay was good; although it would be tiring, if he lived frugally, he could cover his future tuition fees.

Chapter 32

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Chapter 32: Extra €€ Seven

It took a week of lying in the hospital before Pei Hao could use his hands to eat normally. During this period, Pei Yixin only visited him once, and that was because Song Wanqin forced him to go.

When Song Wanqin went out to find the doctor, the father and son sat in the ward staring at each other, the scene awkward for a moment. Later, when the doctor came in to check the leg injury, Song Wanqin deliberately asked Pei Yixin to lend a hand, and only then did he reluctantly touch Pei Hao.

Chapter 33

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Chapter 33: Extra €€ Eight

Mo Xi’s sister eventually found out that he was working to pay for his tuition because his father, seeing that Mo Xi hadn’t used the money they gave him, finally called and told her.

Mo Zi somehow found 100,000 yuan and insisted on giving it to him no matter what. Regardless of how Mo Xi explained on the phone that he was doing fine and had no problems, she insisted on transferring the money.

Chapter 34

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Chapter 34: Extra €€ Nine

“Get up and eat!” Mo Xi ran to Pei Hao’s bedside wearing an apron, pulling a corner of the quilt with one hand and holding a spatula in the other. The morning sun shone on Mo Xi’s face through his fine bangs, making his delicate skin particularly dazzling.

Pei Hao opened his sleepy eyes, rubbed his messy hair, sat up lazily, and looked at Mo Xi: “What are we eating today?”

Chapter 35

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Chapter 35: Extra €€ Ten

Mo Xi had been busy with his summer internship recently. In addition, he had taken a summer course on game design, leaving early and returning late almost every day. Only on weekends did he have time to hang out with classmates or update his posts.

Recently, a person suddenly appeared in the forum. Not only did this person reply to every post Mo Xi wrote, but they also frequently sent him private messages, mostly encouraging and comforting words like “Come on, you can do it.” Although it had a bit of a “chicken soup for the soul” flavor, it still made Mo Xi, who was living a busy and tiring life, feel a trace of warmth from a stranger.

Chapter 36

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Chapter 36: Extra €€ Eleven

It was another night with an IV needle in his hand. Pei Hao lay on the hospital bed, drowsy. Not long after he dozed off, his phone rang.

He answered the phone groggily: “Hello?”

“Pei Hao!” Dan Ge’s deafening voice rang from the other end of the phone. “Damn it, can you reply to my WeChat?!”

Pei Hao covered his ear uncomfortably, held the phone two palms away from him, and asked: “When did you send a WeChat message?”

Chapter 37

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Chapter 37 Side Story — Twelve

“Sis, when is your due date?” Mo Xi was on a video call on his phone, holding a bag of chips in his hand, eating while chatting with Mo Zi.

“November 12th,” Mo Zi stroked her belly, a faint smile on her lips, “I hope she comes out soon. Her dad has already prepared toys, clothes, and milk powder.”

“That’s only a few days away. Don’t go to work recently, stay home and rest well,” Mo Xi urged. The hospital was crowded and full of germs. His sister couldn’t perform surgeries on patients now anyway, so she might as well stay home.

Chapter 38

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Chapter 38 Side Story — Thirteen

“Doctor, how should I take this medicine?” A middle-aged woman stared at the prescription the doctor had just written for her, but couldn’t recognize a single word.

“One pill in the morning and one in the evening, after meals,” Mo Zi replied.

Standing next to the middle-aged woman was a little girl of seven or eight. Upon hearing that she had to take medicine, she started whining: “Mom, I don’t want to take medicine.”

Chapter 39

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Chapter 39 Side Story — Fourteen

The hospital is a magical place. Some people are born here, and some people pass away here. Life and death are staged here every day, like a replay button being pressed. Some say that working in a hospital for a year allows one to witness ten years’ worth of joys and sorrows in the human world.

Yu Xin was a young nurse in the obstetrics and gynecology department. She had been working in the hospital for two years. She had seen husbands crying nervously outside while their wives were giving birth, and she had also seen a husband’s family disappear the next day because the surgery cost was higher than expected. She often joked that if you want to know if a man truly loves you, bring him to the obstetrics and gynecology department for a walk.

Chapter 40

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Chapter 40 Side Story — Fifteen

The elevator doors opened, and Mo Xi looked up to see the bold characters “Intensive Care Unit” written on the door frame. He pushed the door open and walked in. It was much quieter here than in the bustling obstetrics and gynecology department. Patients in the ICU were all halfway to death’s door. Family members sat on chairs with heavy expressions, heads bowed in silence, the air so quiet it seemed solidified. In the innermost seats, two people sat with their heads down. One of them must be Xiao Jun, and the other looked extremely like Pei Hao.

Chapter 41

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Chapter 41 Side Story — Sixteen

The door to the adjacent ward suddenly opened, and a doctor wearing a mask walked out. Another group of family members sitting near Mo Xi immediately ran over and surrounded him. Soon, a sharp cry erupted from the crowd. A woman in her thirties was crying uncontrollably, tears streaming down her face. People around her supported her, their expressions heavy.

The doctor said helplessly: “Please accept my condolences.”

Chapter 42

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Chapter 42 Side Story — Seventeen

Mo Xi brought very little luggage, just a simple backpack containing a few clothes and toiletries. Pei Hao, afraid he might change his mind, snatched the backpack as soon as they got out of the car and strode towards his home. Mo Xi couldn’t snatch it back, so he had to follow reluctantly.

After the two got out of the car, the taxi driver adjusted the rearview mirror, pressed the “Vacant” light, and watched their retreating figures, feeling strange inside—for some reason, he felt the atmosphere between these two grown men was very much like a quarreling couple.

Chapter 43

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Chapter 43 Side Story — Eighteen

When Mo Xi came out of the bedroom, Pei Hao had already set out the takeout he ordered and was waiting for him. Yang’s Roast Chicken, Hu Long Tang’s Crab Roe Soup Dumplings, Lin’s Eight Treasure Rice… all were foods he missed dearly in the US and would drool over just thinking about them.

Pei Hao was simply a roundworm in his heart; he knew exactly what he liked.

Chapter 44

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Chapter 44 Side Story — Nineteen

At eight in the morning, a nurse opened a window in the corridor. A cool breeze blew in, making the person on the chair shiver.

Mo Xi felt a little cold. Probably because the temperature in the hospital corridor was a bit low yesterday, he seemed to have caught a cold. Next to him was Pei Hao, who had fallen asleep leaning on the chair. His hands were crossed on his chest, his eyes were still facing Mo Xi’s direction, and there was a smile on his face, as if he was having a good dream.

Chapter 45

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Chapter 45 Side Story — Twenty

Mo Zi’s body was slowly recovering, and she was transferred from the ICU to a general ward. The smile on Xiao Jun’s face grew more and more, but the mental state of Pei Hao and Mo Xi was getting worse. Mo Xi had been taking cold showers for almost a week, and his cold was getting worse. Coughing and a runny nose were minor issues; yesterday he started to have a low fever, his head was dizzy, and he couldn’t write a single line of code after staring at the computer for half the night. When he went back to the guesthouse to sleep this morning, the air conditioner wouldn’t turn on, and his whole body was cold. Wrapping himself in two quilts was useless, and his face felt hot in waves.

Chapter 46

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Chapter 46 Side Story — Twenty-One

Mo Cheng spent a week on the African savannah without internet. When he returned to the city and saw Mo Xi’s text message, he hurriedly changed his flight to return to China. When he and Li Gaocen rushed back, Mo Zi had already recovered quite well. Holding his little granddaughter in swaddling clothes, the man over fifty suddenly had the urge to burst into tears.

Chapter 47

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Chapter 47 Side Story — Twenty-Two

When the doctor was stitching Pei Hao up, he kept grinning, causing the doctor to look at Mo Xi blankly. That look was definitely asking—is your friend mentally normal?

Mo Xi had no mind to respond to the doctor, but stared unblinkingly at the long and deep cut on Pei Hao’s arm, extremely worried. Every time the doctor’s needle and thread passed through Pei Hao’s skin and flesh, his brows would furrow slightly, as if he was the one suffering instead of Pei Hao. A typical case of the emperor not being anxious but the eunuch being anxious.

Chapter 48

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Chapter 48 Side Story — Twenty-Three

It was already past nine in the evening when the two finished their meal, gobbling it down. Mo Xi sat on the sofa exhausted, recalling the whole day. It was like filming a magical drama, quite a torment.

At this time, Pei Hao poked half of his head out of the bathroom and raised his eyebrows slightly at him: “I might need you to do me a favor.”

Chapter 49

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Chapter 49 Side Story — Twenty-Four

This month was the rainy season in City X. It rained heavily last night, and the roads were wet today, with water accumulated in low-lying areas. When Mo Xi went out to buy groceries in the morning, his trouser legs were covered in mud. He only brought two pairs of trousers this time. The other pair was kicked to the ground by Pockmark in the hospital yesterday and was still lying in the washing machine.

Chapter 50

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Chapter 50 Side Story — Twenty-Five

Chen Xu first touched Pei Hao’s lips a few times. Seeing no reaction from the person beneath him, he seemed to have received permission, and his movements became bolder. He leaned closer and sucked gently a few times.

Just as he wanted to continue, the person beneath him suddenly opened his eyes, pinched his chin hard with one hand, and roughly moved his mouth away.

Chapter 51

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Chapter 51 Side Story — Twenty-Six

In the early morning, the sun rose from the east, and a ray of sunlight penetrated the mist and shone into the room. Pei Hao opened his eyes with some difficulty, paused for a few seconds, and some scenes from last night gradually emerged in his mind. His head still hurt. He sat up and rubbed his temples, looking at the empty half of the bed and falling into deep thought.

Chapter 52

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Chapter 52 Side Story — Twenty-Seven

“I miss you so much.”

“Compared to changing your mind, I hope you live happily in this world.”

“Xiao Xi, I love you.”

Mo Xi opened his eyes abruptly, propped himself up on the bed for a few seconds, then patted his head and sat up.

Since returning from City X, he had been like possessed, often dreaming of Pei Hao. The dreams were always those few fragments and those few sentences.

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Chapter 53 Extra — Twenty-Eight

Pei Hao breathed a sigh of relief after signing the last contract of the year with a client in the company conference room. The clients that needed to be talked to had been talked to, and the contracts that needed to be signed had been signed. Things at the company could finally quiet down for a while.

Fu Bing asked him if he wanted to take a vacation. She still remembered that last time Pei Hao took a week off, she had called him back to work for a few days. Pei Hao thought for a moment, then sent a WeChat message to Mo Xi, asking him what his plans were for Christmas.

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Chapter 54 Extra — Twenty-Nine

The lighting in the bar was weird and blurry. People on the dance floor were dancing wildly like demons. Deafening music blared from the speakers, making Brother Dan’s eardrums hurt.

Two girls wearing little black dresses with spaghetti straps and heavy makeup came over with wine glasses and asked him and the handsome guy next to him if they wanted to hang out together. Brother Dan pointed at Pei Hao, who was almost lying on the table from drinking, waved his hand at the girls, and shouted loudly: “He likes men.”

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第55章番外 €€ 三十

莫西刚到家没多久，麦盈的微信就跳了出来，莫西隔着屏幕都能感受到她强烈的八卦之魂。

麦盈：怎么样，秦子然人是不是超好？！

莫西：人确实很好啊~

麦盈：要不要发展一下下（挑眉.jpg）

莫西：还是算了

麦盈：为什么？？

为什么？

因为和他吃饭时频频想起前男友……

不过，这么回好像不太合适，莫西思考一番，在键盘上敲出了最百试不爽的三个字：没感觉。

麦盈正想说些什么，手机忽地又震了一下，秦子然的微信也跳了出来，简明扼要但十分醒目：人挺好的，比较适合做朋友。

麦盈抓了抓头发，惊讶之余又感到深深的无奈。她原本以为，这么好的两个人肯定会看对眼的……

但是两人竟然都对对方兴趣缺缺……

这个世界是怎么了？

麦盈怀着对人生的极大疑惑又给秦子然发了一条：Why？？

秦子然那边很快就回了：我看到他就想起小启，我怎么可能和他谈恋爱

小启是秦子然的亲弟弟，几年前出车祸走了。

服了，这个理由我心服口服。

麦盈关上手机，叹了口气，心想你们两爱咋咋地吧，老娘不管了。

今天下午整个城市都笼罩在一层雾气中，眼看是要下雨的节奏，莫西回到家第一件事情就是关窗。果不其然，待他洗完澡出来外面就淅淅沥沥的下起了雨。

莫西拿出手机看了一眼，没有任何信息，他也不知道自己是在等什么。

或许是……裴昊？

已经快四天没找过他的裴昊。

他昨天还在想裴昊是不是出了什么事，但是一刷朋友圈发现裴昊还给蛋哥的照片点了赞。

莫西闷闷地关上屏幕。

心情竟然有点，失落。

罢了罢了，在喜欢他这件事情上，裴昊向来是这样的，三分钟热度。

窗外的雨好像越来越大，莫西能听到雨水稀里哗啦落在地上的声音。

看了眼时间，离他平时睡觉的点还早，莫西往嘴里塞了一颗薄荷糖，提提神€€€€得把书拿出来看会儿，离期末考越来越近，这学期能不能拿奖学金就看这一门了。

也不知道看了多久，门铃猝然响了。

莫西把耳朵往外凑了凑，确认自己没听错。

这个时间谁会来敲门？

难道是麦盈忘记带钥匙了？

也不会啊，她要是没带钥匙肯定会先打电话确认莫西在家的。

奇了怪了。

莫西犹犹豫豫地走到门口，打开猫眼往外瞄。

然后整个人就定在了原地。

裴昊顶着一头湿淋淋的头发站在门口，脸上还有雨水不断往下淌，样子十分狼狈。

莫西觉得自己有些神思恍惚了，由于最近总是莫名其妙地想起裴昊，于是终于看到了幻象。

他晃了晃脑袋，门外的人还在，再晃一晃，还在！

门铃一直在响，响的频率好像还有些急不可待，莫西终于伸手开了门。

裴昊全身被淋得透透的，大衣遇水已经从浅驼色成了深棕色，随手一摸都是湿的。莫西家门口那条路今晚出事故封了，车子过不了，他是冒着雨跑过来的。

裴昊见开门的是莫西就冲上去把人紧紧拥住，莫西只穿了一件薄薄的睡衣，全身骤然被刺骨的冷浸入，禁不住一颤。身旁的人却扣得更紧，像是要把他骨头揉碎融进骨髓里。

时间好像停顿了下来，身体里的寒意也渐渐褪去，唯一在流动的是裴昊脸上冰凉的雨水，顺着贴紧的肌肤流到莫西的脖颈里，一直往下滑，最后融在莫西的衣服上。

裴昊把头埋在莫西的肩上，莫西侧过头去嗅了嗅，淡淡的橘子洗发水味，再抬手摸一摸对方潮湿到可以拧出水的衣服，确认了，是实实在在的裴昊啊！

“你怎么……”莫西愣了愣，难以置信地开了口，“来这里了？”

裴昊沉默片刻后，贴着他的耳朵轻言细语：“想你了。”

莫西觉得他的声音微微有些抖。

难道……哭了？

“你怎么了？”莫西感觉不大对劲，于是把人推开，一扬头刚好撞上裴昊通红的双眼。

下一秒，湿润的触感在唇边散开，裴昊俯身吻住了他，微凉的舌尖撬开他的唇齿，在上颚掠过一道弧线，酥**痒的，莫西心一颤，呼吸都乱了节拍。

这是一个清清浅浅，细琢慢舔的吻。

他嘴里还有半颗没化开的薄荷糖，裴昊用舌尖一扫，把糖扫进了自己嘴里，咬碎，瞬间一股清凉的味道在两人口腔里散开，传遍全身，还伴着淡淡的甜味。

楼道里有一扇开着的窗，雨珠连成一条条线在外面哗哗下坠，莫西睡衣已经湿了一半，冷气直冒进来，他不由得打了个哆嗦。

裴昊见状，把人往屋里一推，掩上门，迅速褪去了身上的大衣，扔到门口，没给莫西反应的时间，立刻又拥吻上去。

这次裴昊一只手按住莫西的后脑勺，一只手捧着他的下巴，用一个近乎霸道的姿势低下头用力吮吸，疯狂地在他的口腔里攻城略地。

舌尖和舌尖交缠到了一起，心与心也近乎贴到了一起。

很快，莫西身上的冷意消失无影，取而代之的是唇瓣间热烈的温度，像过电一般流过全身。

有什么东西在心里霹雳哗啦的炸开了，身体一阵阵发热，从脚底直冲天灵盖。

莫西望着裴昊深情的眸子，这几天萦绕缠身的失望感刹那间就在里面溶化了，算了，不和裴昊计较了。

他相信裴昊是爱着他的。

正如他也还爱着裴昊一样。

头有点晕，眼前冒着小星星，那种感觉，就像是坠入了无底深渊，还是心甘情愿那种。

裴昊吻得动情，把人推到玄关的椅子上，伸手想要褪去莫西的睡衣。

在他解开莫西上衣的第三颗纽扣的时候，莫西终于回了点神，拿出仅剩不多的理智拍掉裴昊的手，大喊一声：“裴昊！”

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第56章番外 €€ 三十一

卫生间传来哗哗的水滴声，和屋外的下雨声融为一体。

莫西回到卧室拿起书，却怎么也看不进去了，书本上那些字仿佛突然会动了，一横一竖一撇一捺自发地拼成了裴昊的名字。

一分钟……

五分钟……

十分钟过去了，书还停留在最开始的那一页，始终没有动过。

莫西“啪”地合上书，有些沮丧地在床上躺平，完蛋了完蛋了，他满门心思想的都是正在洗澡的裴昊。

浴室里的水关上了，他能清楚听见裴昊从花洒走到门口的脚步声，门开了，裴昊走出来了，在他的卧室前停下了。

“有我能穿的衣服吗？”裴昊低沉的声音从门口传来。

莫西转头一瞥，裴昊上半身不着寸缕，结实的胸膛上还挂着没擦干的水珠，围着一条浴巾靠在卧室门边，含笑望向他。

靠，他怎么把裴昊没衣服换这件事忘记了！

以他两相处这么多年的经验来看，这种情况极有可能会擦枪走火。

莫西避开裴昊的视线，猛地从床上弹起来，手忙脚乱地去翻衣柜。

裴昊一只手撑着头靠在门上，看着莫西慌慌张张的模样，不知怎地，有点想笑。莫西站在衣柜前，微微弯着腰，修长的双腿还是直的，臀部蜷成了一道好看的线条。裴昊喉结一滑，缓缓走到莫西身后，双手扣住在前面翻箱倒柜的人，身子贴了上去，嗓子略有些沙哑：

“别找了，我不穿。”

身后传来湿热的气息，莫西杵在原地愣住，还没来得及反应，人就被裴昊一把带到了床上。

……

躺回床上的时候，莫西已经累得睁不开眼了，只是双腿还在轻轻打颤。裴昊从后面抱住他，把头垫在他的头发上，神情认真：

“以后我再也不会放开你的手了。”

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第57章番外 €€ 三十二

早上莫西是枕着裴昊的手臂醒过来的，睁眼的瞬间脑子有些混沌，几秒过后，像照相机一般咔咔闪过无数帧来自昨晚香艳的画面。这时候裴昊也朦朦胧胧地张开眼，一看见怀里的人就笑了，眉头笑得弯弯的，像月牙一样。

莫西准备直身坐起来，谁知道身旁的人手臂一揽，又把他带进怀里。头靠在了裴昊的手臂上，离上次他在医院留下的刀疤只有一寸的距离，疤已经结了痂，留下一条又红又长的印记。

昨晚太累了莫西都没注意，现在他覆手上去摸了摸，低声问：“痛吗？”

“不痛，但是痒。”裴昊低头啄了一下他的额头，揉了揉他的发：“倒是你……身体还好吗？”

这不问还好，一问莫西就觉得全身经脉牵扯着骨髓，快散架了，**还有些涩。不是那种剧烈的痛，而是隐隐溜出来的酸涩，仿佛时不时就跳出来提醒他昨晚发生的事情。

“好就怪了……”莫西说话的嗓音比平时哑了，想是昨天哭了太久。

哭？

莫西猛地想起昨天在镜子面前被弄得哭哭啼啼的自己，羞耻得简直想钻到床底下去。

“那我给你揉揉？”裴昊伸手想去掐住莫西的腰，却被一把打开。

“别碰！”莫西急了，两个年轻气盛的少年赤身裸体地躺在一起，再摸来摸去，不发生点什么才怪。

裴昊讪讪地伸回手：“哦。”

莫西忍着腰上的酸痛撑床坐起来，摸过手机看了一眼，已经十点了。

早上的论坛错过了……

这次学校论坛来了很多国内国外的企业做宣讲，很多公司是来提升品牌影响力的，顺便招些人，莫西想随便转转看能不能遇到合适的岗位。

今天下午来的主要是亚洲公司，中国公司居多，他要作为学院代表上台提问题。

看看时间，勉强能在家里吃顿早中饭。

莫西忙不迭从被窝里爬出来换上衣服，去卫生间洗漱。

其实今儿天特别阴，灰沉沉的没什么阳光，裴昊却像是沐浴在樱花盛开的春天，开心得不得了，一边唱歌一边把鸡蛋煎糊了，自己还吃得津津有味。吃完饭他缠着莫西要去参加那个什么论坛，莫西觉得裴昊单独跟他在一起的时候越来越像个小孩子，又撒娇又撇嘴的，实在拗不过，只得答应了。

到了该出门的点，裴昊昨天湿透的衣服也烘干了，莫西换了一套深蓝色西装，如长亭玉立，举手投足间有些风度翩翩的意思。裴昊帮他稍微抹了点发蜡，露出饱满光洁的额头，头发定了型，看起来没那么蓬松。

一个字：帅！

裴昊越打量越喜欢，按着人又吻了一顿。

就这不到24小时的时间里，莫西已经被亲得有些麻木了，他推开裴昊，理了理袖口，面无表情道：“还走不走了？”

“走！”裴昊笑着答他。

论坛是在学校的一个大楼里举办，很多外校的学生也循声而来。到了亚洲场，只见几个零零星星的欧美学生，来参加的清一色是亚洲人。

也在意料之中，毕竟这些公司都开在亚洲，欧美人找工作也不会找到那边去。

场子没昨天那么热闹，但也只是到了不挤的程度，人还是很多的。

莫西刚到场地，就接了一个电话，是同院的同学打来的，说他今天发高烧，拜托莫西帮他顶一下，上台去随便问几个问题。莫西看了眼时间，同学那场是在他这场后一小时，来得及准备，所以就答应了。

等他结束自己这边，去查同学那场资料的时候，愣住了。

主题内容是“创业之路”，上面写着裴昊他爸公司的赫赫大名，莫西手一抖，歪头看向裴昊，有些顾虑：“你爸会来吗？”

“嗯？”裴昊挠了挠头，凑过去看了一眼，“不知道，要看他有没有时间。”

莫西瞅着资料上的主题，在心里叹了口气，祈求千万不要让他碰上裴易心。虽然人家不见得认识他，但是他昨天晚上才和他儿子……万分心虚好么！

这场是在一个大会议室里，前面有一个大屏幕，台上放着五个椅子，台下面坐的人越来越多，后来座位满了有的人就站在了走道里。

“今天我们有幸请到了几家国内优秀企业的CEO，来和我们谈谈他们在创业路上遇到过的艰辛，”女主持人拿起话筒，字正腔圆地报起了嘉宾名字，“下面我们有请梁宏建造公司的伍思……还有勤心科技的裴易心。”

场下响起一片哗哗的鼓掌声，只有莫西在听到裴易心这三个字的时候额头蓦地落了一滴汗，心突突地跳得停不下来。真是怕什么来什么，一个小时后他要上去和前男友亲爹面对面，最扯的是前男友现在还坐在他旁边。

莫西牢牢握了拳头，手心紧张得溢出了汗。忽然旁边一只温暖而有力量的手掌盖上了他紧握的拳头，裴昊低头贴紧他的耳朵沉声道：“放心，我爸不认识你。”

其实他撒谎了，裴易心不仅认识莫西，还叫人去查过他。

不过这是眼下最有用的安慰，虽然裴昊也拿不准他爹在想什么，但是他觉得裴易心不会不分场合地为难一个年轻人。

莫西听到这句话舒了一口气，松开拳头，把手抽回放在腿上，心里是踏实了许多。

台上的四个企业家对自己的创业事迹侃侃而谈，台下的莫西却有点坐如针毡，他只希望这场早点结束，那样他就可以回家睡个好觉。

当然，前提是旁边的人让他好好睡觉。

因为主办方找的翻译水平不够，一开口就惹得下面的观众笑声绵绵，再加上观众全是中国人，所以进行到一半主办方直接把翻译撤了，换了个中国人主持。

“我们还有一个环节，由我们的学生代表来和几个企业家谈谈，留学生对中国企业的期待和疑问，”新主持人面带微笑，“下面我们欢迎计算机学院的同学代表上台。”

主持人话音一落，场上又想起了一片掌声，裴昊拍了拍他的肩，莫西深吸一口气，从椅子上站起来，走向台上。

莫西走到中间，朝观众和台上的人鞠了个躬，拿起话筒：“大家好，我是计算机学院研二的学生，莫西。”

追光打在莫西身上，裴易心盯着他上下打量了一番，觉得有些面熟。当听到莫西这两个字的时候，确定了眼前这个就是裴昊的小情人，不禁皱了皱眉。

莫西收到了来自裴易心意味深长的注视，心有点慌，但是想起裴昊那句他不认识你，又强迫自己冷静下来。

“那莫西同学，刚刚我们几位优秀的CEO还简单介绍了一下公司招聘流程，你有什么想替留学生群体提出来的问题吗？”主持人问。

莫西拿着话筒，说了一个提前准备好的问题：“我们可能比较关心的是，像你们这样优秀的企业，对参加招聘学生的软实力有什么要求？”

“要和公司文化匹配……”

“要努力创新……”

前面两位老总的回答都很中规中矩，到了第三位梁总，画风突变。

“我希望大家都能脚踏实地，”这个问题可能问到梁总心坎上了，他拿着话筒，表情严肃，“现在很多年轻人，特别是海归，好高骛远，眼高手低，自己实力不够，还总是期待高工资高待遇……”

嗯，话说得难听了一点，但也没毛病，是有很多这样的留学生。

接下来情况就不大对了，梁总似乎对留学生群体有很大的意见，拿着话筒足足批判了五分钟，一会儿说留学生都是在国内成绩不好才出来的，一会儿又说留学生都是出来败钱混日子的。

这话一说，把那些靠自己打工或拿奖学金出国读书，还有那些经历过各种考试才能申请到心仪学校的留学生放在哪里？

台下嘘声一片，其他几位嘉宾面色也有些尴尬，主持人不得不出来救场：“刚刚梁总提到了一些反面的例子，但我相信大部分留学生都是很努力……”

“莫同学！”梁总打断了主持人的话，转头看向站在旁边不知所措的莫西，“我问一问，你毕业后期望的年薪是多少？”

忽然被CUE, 莫西怔了一下，缓缓回他：“十多万人民币？”

莫西不是随便乱说的，这是他以前在老东家的薪水。

“看！我就说吧，你们就是好高骛远，”梁总觉得自己抓住了台上人的小辫子，开始大批特批，“你们学校又不是常青藤，要求这么高……”

梁总就这么接着又说了一分钟，什么温室里的花朵、不吃苦耐劳都出来了，说得莫西有点懵，回他也不是，不回也不是。

台下的裴昊听得咬起了牙关，脸色铁青。台上其他三家公司都是国内有名的企业，只有这个梁总的公司他从来没听过，一看就是主办方请来凑数的，但是为什么要请这种既没情商也没智商的傻叉？跑到留学生主场来骂留学生？故意找爆点想要黑红一把？

莫西倒是没有太生气，只是觉得尴尬，正当他低着头考虑要不要回复的时候，坐在一旁看了好一会儿戏的裴易心开了口。

Chapter 58

Wed, 25 Mar 2026 05:09:08 +0000

Chapter 58#

第58章番外 €€ 三十三

晚上两人在莫西家附近的餐馆买了点外卖，一家味道很正的越南粉店。吃完粉，莫西抱着大碗咕嘟咕嘟地把鲜美汤汁一扫而空，抬头时，嘴角还沾了点汤料。

“急什么？”裴昊好笑地看着他，拿拇指指腹擦了擦他的嘴角，“又没人跟你抢。”

“好喝！”莫西伸舌头舔了舔裴昊手指刚刚碰过的嘴角，还残余些汤汁的咸味。

“那你把我的也喝了吧，”裴昊把自己的碗推到莫西面前，“我饱了。”

“真的？”莫西半信半疑地端起碗，按裴昊以前的食量，可不止那么一点。

“嗯，”裴昊点头，耸肩道，“时差没倒过来，没胃口。”

也对，现在是国内的大清早。莫西又咕嘟咕嘟地喝下了裴昊那碗汤，喝完满足地揉着鼓起来的肚子半躺在椅子上感叹：“那你今天没有口福了。”

裴昊一愣，好像几年前某个闷热的午后，慵懒又放松的莫西也揉着肚子说过差不多的话，那时候他还是个看到食物眼里会放光、看到裴昊眼里会冒桃花的简单少年。

成年旧事浮上心头，裴昊眼里没来由地泛起柔柔的涟漪，他俯**，按住莫西的肩膀，舌头伸进他的口腔里搜刮了一番，退出来后自诩得意地扬起脸：“这样就有口福了。”

莫名其妙又被吻了一次，莫西怵在椅子上呆愣了会儿，回溯了最近这24小时发生的片段，感觉自己好像分裂成了两个人，其中一个成了角，跟着裴昊全情投入地演了一出怪诞不经的戏，另一个则站在高处冷静平淡地旁观了这场光怪陆离的表演。

“你怎么了？”裴昊亲完之后，见椅子上的人一点反应都没有，只好拿手在他眼前晃了晃。

“裴昊，”莫西突然凝着眉，表情严肃，“我有事想和你谈谈。”

说来也是讽刺，他和裴昊牵牵扯扯这么多年，到现在还没个定论。昨晚那么一睡，事情就更复杂了，有些话不说清楚他心里不踏实。

裴昊见莫西这副认真的模样，笑意逐渐收敛回来，他隐约知道莫西要谈什么，心里没有来由地涌起一阵不安感。

做好心理准备后，他也拖出一个椅子坐下，转身看向莫西：“你说。”

莫西并没有立刻开口，而是站起身，从冰箱里掏出几瓶啤酒，手一扣，滋滋的水泡冒上来，很快就充满了瓶颈。他递了一瓶给裴昊，自己手上拿了一瓶，然后碰了碰对面的瓶子，主动先喝了一口泡沫。

喝完莫西抹了抹嘴，盯着手里的瓶子，直截了当开了口：“你觉得我们现在是什么关系？”

该来的总会来，逃是逃不掉的。裴昊也没有单纯到以为做一场爱就可以力挽狂澜，让人回心转意。有些问题它始终在那里，并不会因为一场激烈的**或者几句漂亮的情话就消失不见。

“于我，你是爱人，” 裴昊晃了晃手上的酒瓶，刚从冰箱里拿出来还是冰的，喝一口下去丝丝凉意沁入骨髓，“但现在掌握主动权的人是你，你觉得我们是什么关系？”

又把问题抛回来了。

莫西抓了抓头发，有些烦躁，偶尔一两个瞬间他甚至希望裴昊说只是想随便玩玩，那他大可以收着真心，用裴昊想要的方式度过接下来几天，之后隔得十万八千里远的两人互不相欠，在忙碌的生活中慢慢忘却彼此。

可是裴昊认认真真地说把他当爱人。

爱人这两个字太重了，是沉甸甸的责任，是剪不断的牵连，也是把对方全心全意捧在手心的爱意。这两年来裴昊为他做了这么多，说不感动是假的，但在经历过那段低到尘埃里的感情后，莫西不知道自己是不是还能一头扎进裴昊怀里，不顾一切地去爱他。

想来是做不到了，至少现在不行。

一瓶酒已经下肚，莫西还沉默地凝望着手上的玻璃瓶，没有说话。空气一度有些让人窒息。裴昊越等越觉得无望，心沉了下来，只要莫西稍一扬头，就能看到他满眼的失落。

可惜莫西自始至终都没有抬头看他一眼。

许久，裴昊碰了碰莫西手上的瓶子，故作轻松道：“想不清楚就别想了，你可以把我当炮友、当备胎，都无所谓，反正我会一直站在你旁边，等你。”

“你跟别人在一起了，我等你分手，你要是结婚了，我等你离婚，如果……我是说如果，”话说到这里裴昊的声音有些抖，“你遇到了可以和你走一生的人……那我等你到下辈子。”

以前在他们两的感情里，患得患失的总是莫西，现在角色错位，裴昊也实实在在体验了一把这种心酸的滋味。

也好，风水轮流转，他应得的。

莫西皱着眉，心脏闷的难受，不知道是因为被裴昊这突如其来的表白打乱了方寸，还是因为那个曾经年少气盛的人竟在他面前把姿态放得那么低。

一辈子心高气傲的裴昊，刚刚竟然说愿意做他的备胎。

真是太好笑了。

莫西又开了一瓶啤酒一饮而尽，喝得太快还呛得咳嗽起来，裴昊忙过去帮他拍了拍背，夺过他手上的啤酒，劝慰道：“喝慢点。”

“你别管……”莫西啪地推开裴昊的手，因为酒精耳边已经爬上一串红晕，打了个酒嗝后，他又叩开了一个瓶盖，“我今天想喝酒。”

他很矛盾。

想放纵去爱，失望太久的灵魂却习惯了克制，

想遏止住情感，内里却总有什么东西要呼之欲出。

他现在急需点酒精，助他放大所有的感官，借他个胆做一些平时不敢做的决定。

裴昊在一旁忧心忡忡地看着，准备等他喝完这一瓶，就把人拖去洗澡睡觉。

哪知道喝到一半莫西又去旁边的柜子里翻出了一瓶白酒，打开盖子就对着嘴，一口下去喝了不少。

裴昊：“……”

火辣辣的液体滚入喉中，胃灼烧着，血液也跟着翻腾起来，莫西终于觉得头有些晕，达到了他想要的状态€€€€半醉半醒。

下一秒他扬起头，一双潮湿的眼睛扫在裴昊脸上，似笑非笑地牵起了对面人的指尖：“我确实还喜欢你……”

话音刚落，裴昊的眼睛骤然亮了起来。他以为又要被拒绝了，没想到莫西要说的是这个。

“但我不可能像以前那样无所顾忌的爱你了，我现在对你的信任最多最多……只到及格线，”说着莫西又晃了晃脑袋，“不对，连及格线都没到……”

“你想要一个，可能不怎么爱你，也不怎么信任你的爱人吗？”

莫西一直抓着啤酒瓶，手指冰凉，裴昊被触得一颤，随即反手穿过莫西的指缝，握住手掌，深深望了一眼喝得半醉的人，正色道：“只要是你，什么样的我都要。”

“你再想想……”莫西嘀咕着，另一只手拿起酒瓶又咕嘟咽了几口，“可能会对你不公平……”

“不用想了。”裴昊心中欢喜，夺过莫西手上的酒瓶放到桌子上，两只手架住腰把人抱起，低头吻了上去。

一阵连绵湿热的深吻后，他把人拦腰抱起，同时打翻了放在桌上还剩一半的酒瓶，酒水滴滴哒哒地顺着桌边落到地上。

不过这时候没人在意这个。

几秒之后，莫西被扔到床上，裴昊欺身压住他，杂乱无章的吻落下来，温暖的热气扑哧在双颊、脖颈、锁骨……

莫西微微眯着眼睛，又确认性地问了一次：“所以我们现在是爱人？不用百分之百真心那种？”

“嗯，”裴昊喘着粗气点点头，顿了顿，又补到，“我会用尽全力，但你随意。”

“哦，”莫西歪过头抿了抿嘴，“要是你累了随时可以分手。”

“不分！”

……

就这样吧，两个还互相喜欢的人，也不必再扭扭捏捏，说明心意，能在一起便在一起，若不能，就一拍两散。

躺在柔软的大床上，莫西恍惚中又忆起那个吃着西瓜的蝉鸣夏日和在球场上意气风发的青葱少年，即便场里场外人山人海，他还是一眼就抓住了裴昊的身影，不到三分钟便爱上。

为什么是裴昊？其实这个问题莫西后来思考过很久，最后找到的答案是，因为他就是莫西最喜欢的样子。

再来十次八次，他可能还是会爱上他。

如果可以选，他会宁愿自己那天没去过篮球场。可是既然碰到了，他也只能随着命运以一发不可收拾之势往前奔。

Chapter 59

Wed, 25 Mar 2026 05:09:08 +0000

Chapter 59#

第59章番外 €€ 三十四

莫西从来没想过会和裴昊谈上了异国恋。

裴昊喜欢给他打电话，两人忙的时候就在微信上简单说两句，周末开着视频各干各的事€€€€其实莫西没想这么黏糊，但是十三个小时的时差打不散裴昊的热情，他总能找到各种话题和莫西聊起来。

除了裴昊，还有莫姿会找他，有时候肖€€€€也会在手机里对他呀呀呓语。听说医闹那些人该赔钱的赔钱、该判刑的判刑，莫西也算放下了点心。

一大波期末考即将接踵而至，公司也到了年底最忙的时候，莫西又开始了昼夜伏出的生活。和以前不太一样的是，现在压力大了有个人可以聊聊天，裴昊会慢条斯理地帮他分析生活和工作上的事情，时不时给他寄一些解压大礼包€€€€礼物、玩具、零食……最近一次，大礼包里多了张去阿拉斯加的往返机票。

裴昊说圣诞要带他去阿拉斯加看极光。

出发那天正好是圣诞前夜，莫西穿上了最防寒的装备，出了机场走了没几分钟还是觉得冷，禁不住打了个寒颤。裴昊早已租好车在机场出口等他，见他哆哆嗦嗦的模样连忙摘下自己的围巾给他围上。

“零下二十多度，”裴昊抓过莫西冰冷的双手在手心捂了捂，哈了口气，“怎么穿这么少？”

“我没在零下二十多度的地方待过……”莫西撇撇嘴，他上学的城市最冷的时候零下十多度，这身装备足够，他以为不会差太多……

“没事，我半个行李箱里都是给你带的衣服，”裴昊刮了刮他的鼻子，指了指后车厢，“一会儿换上。”

“嗯。”莫西面上点头，心里却有些意外，以前出去玩总是他操心得比较多，没想到这次裴昊想得比他周到。

冬天的阿拉斯加是雪国圣地，无论是房屋、树木、还是公路都是白茫茫一片，连嘴里呼出来的水气遇冷都会变成白色，天与地相连的地方浑然一色，更是亮得晃眼。

山上的公路积了一层不薄不厚的雪，裴昊好不容易才把车开到他们住的地方€€€€半山腰处的一栋欧式小木屋，客厅的一半天花板连着大片窗户都是透明的，房主说运气好的时候，躺在沙发上一抬头就能看见极光。

莫西进屋转了一圈后就爱上了这里€€€€布置温馨，除了沙发几乎都是木质家具，设施一应俱全，能做饭能洗衣服，后院还有一个露天的小温泉。屋内暖气很足，他刚刚在车外冻得发红的耳尖没几分钟就热得发红，人躺在沙发上赖着不想出去了。

裴昊已有半个多月没见到他，想念得紧，搂过在沙发上的人亲了会儿才去行李箱里取出Switch，往桌上一扔：“不想出去就在屋里呆着，反正这几天也没什么餐馆开门。”说完自己开车去附近超市买回来一堆食材。

莫西觉得没有比在暖气房里一边玩游戏一边啃西瓜更美好的事情了€€€€是的，裴昊居然买回来一个西瓜。

“还挺甜。”莫西连着吃了六七块，直到肚子鼓起来。

“少吃点，”刚从厨房出来的裴昊点了点他的鼻尖，眉角含着笑意，“一会儿还要吃饭。”

“哦，已经来不及了，”莫西指着空掉的盘子，耸肩：“吃完了。”

裴昊：“……好吧”

屋外雪花纷飞，森林像是盖上了一层厚厚的白毯，延伸到没有尽头的前方，是无边的壮阔与静寂，屋内两人却玩得火热。

“你别朝我丢炸弹！”

“我有吗？”

“你有……啊€€€€又来！”

“哈哈哈哈……”

“你是故意的吧裴昊？！”

……

12月末的阿拉斯加白昼极短，不到下午四点太阳就几乎落下山头，零零星星的灯火在不同的山头陆续亮了起来。

吃完饭，裴昊拉着莫西去后院泡温泉。

温泉不是第一次泡，但在这种白雪皑皑、滴水成冰的山上泡露天温泉还是头一次€€€€而且只有他们两。

温泉旁的树枝上挂着细长透亮的冰条，莫西把脖子以下都埋在了温热的水里，不小心沾到水的发梢和眉梢很快就凝结出了白霜，裴昊抬手细细摩挲着他脸上银白色的地方，突然若有所思地喃喃道：“我们这样是不是也算一起走到了暮雪白头？”

说完自己也意识到这样的比喻有些投机取巧，于是低下头自知无趣地笑了笑。

莫西在温泉里找了块石头坐下，抬头观望广阔无垠的夜空，刚下完雪，云还没有完全散去，只有零碎几颗星星散落在天上，也并没有遇到极光。

不是一个完美的夜晚，但小木屋内昏黄的灯光照出来，温馨得恰到好处。

莫西靠在温泉里的石块上，水面氤氲的雾气在他泡得通红的脸上打下一层缥缈的晕影，映出清隽的面部线条。

裴昊在弥散的热气中低头吻住他，浓滑的香津交缠在唇齿之间。可能是因为温泉太热，也可能是因为旁边人吻得太入情，不过多久，莫西就觉得自己心跳加快，有点晕眩，裴昊舌头从他两瓣唇中抽出来时，还带起了一缕细长的水丝。

……

一阵激烈的纠缠后，莫西嫣红着脸大口喘气，呼吸变得困难，身子热得像是要烧起来，恨不能去雪地上打几个滚。裴昊把人打横抱起来回了屋，给他擦干净后，搂着他在客厅沙发上看剧。

莫西也不记得他是几点睡过去的了，醒来时已经在床上，身旁是还在睡梦中的人，裴昊半梦半醒，换了个姿势，小声呢喃了几句，把他搂得更紧，又沉沉睡去。

恍然间，莫西觉得时间又回到了他们同居的那一年，几乎每个早上都是这样的开始。

好像命运兜兜转转这么多年，最后他们又回到了原点。

据说在这座城市停留至少三晚，且每晚都在外面守候，那么看到极光的概率至少是90%。而他们不偏不倚就掉进了那可怜的10%，在这呆了四天，也守候了四个晚上，没有见到极光的半点影子。

最后一个晚上，裴昊开着车带他去国家公园的湖边，水面一片漆黑，前方的森林广阔无声。莫西沉溺在头顶的浩瀚星空中，夜风拂过，耀眼绚丽的银河横贯在广漠的天幕中，无限光彩。

这是他离星空最近的一次，仿佛伸手即可摘星辰。

原来裴昊说的要带他看星空，不只是说说而已。

莫西被大自然的浩淼多姿震住了，那头的裴昊却隐隐有一丝失落，他们已经等到了凌晨三点，极光仍旧没出现。要回去的时候，他把相机和三脚架收了回来，又去后车厢捣鼓了一阵，莫西以为他是去放相机。

过了几秒，莫西转身准备回车上，没想到裴昊突然走到他面前，单膝跪地，手上拿着一个戒指。

“小西，你愿意和我去领证吗？”

车头灯的强光打在裴昊背后，太刺眼，莫西看不清他的表情，只能从掷地有声的语气里推断出他说这句话时的郑重其事。

莫西原地愣住，诧异他突然玩起这套，手一时不知道该向前还是该往后，半晌，才犹豫着开了口：“我们……上个月才在一起……”

他对裴昊，即便深爱过，却还有这样那样的顾虑，时间不够长，他还没做好把自己完全交给面前人的准备。

“我知道，”裴昊深吸一口气，牢牢盯着眼前的人，“这是我的一个承诺，以后只要你想，我们随时都可以去领。”

莫西曾经在网上那个帖子里惋惜地说过他这辈子大概都领不到结婚证了，裴昊记得，所以想给他一个只属于他们两人的结婚小本本。

当然，领证只能在国外领，领了国内也不会承认，但这是裴昊对这段感情的一个态度€€€€你是我想携手一生的爱人，什么时候，只要你乐意，只要你想要，我都给你。

莫西陷入了沉思中，他和裴昊这一个月的进展太快，头脑有些乱。

地上的雪地很冷，裴昊也不知道跪了多久，后来裤子的膝盖处都湿透了，凉意刺进骨头里，莫西没开口，他也没想起来。

良久，裴昊跪着叹了口气：“本来想趁遇到极光的时候给你戒指的，想着你一开心可能就答应了，但我运气不好，上天也不帮我。”说完他自嘲地笑了笑。

听他这么一说，莫西终于从纷乱的思绪中抽回了点神，一低头，发现裴昊陷在雪地里的腿有些抖，他忙接过戒指放进裤兜里，把裴昊扶了起来。

莫西摸摸冻得通红的鼻头，轻声道：“不一定要有极光。”

裴昊感觉自己刚刚像坐了一个以几乎重力加速度垂直向下坠落的过山车，这一秒又忽地升到了最高峰，五味杂陈，但更多的是欣喜若狂。

“戒指先放我这，”莫西看向远处，又补了一句，“领证以后再说。”

车里的音乐正好放到了Cold Play的《Yellow》，舒缓的音乐在耳边缓缓响起：

Look at the stars

Chapter 60

Wed, 25 Mar 2026 05:09:08 +0000

Chapter 60#

第60章番外 €€ 三十五

In the end the love you take is equal to the love you make €€€€The Beatles

在回国的机场候机厅，裴昊发了一条朋友圈。两张图，一张是昨天晚上的星空，一张是和莫西十指相握的手。

没有文字，没有分组，没有遮掩，所有人可见。

陈栩是第一个刷到这条状态的人，他点进裴昊的主页，发现他的签名已经改成了：愿得一人心，白首不相离。

看到这句话，陈栩第一时间想到的就是医院里裴昊时时刻刻在意着的那个人，肯定是他没错了，裴昊眼里只有他。

虽然有些失落，陈栩却在心里安慰自己其实运气还不错，至少没有喜欢上一个直男。他默默从裴昊主页退出来，关上手机准备出去吃午饭。

午休时在公司茶水间玩手机的大白一眼就认出来那是莫西的手€€€€手背有一条又细又长的白色胎记。他旁观了这段将近八年的感情，合过分过，终于是走到了一起，不甚唏嘘。他也谈过十多个男朋友，至今还是孑然一人，在某种程度上他是羡慕莫西的。

有很多话想说，但都没有发出去，最后只是在那条状态下点了个赞，然后私信裴昊：以后一定要好好对他。

裴昊很快回他：一定。

没多久裴昊的朋友圈就炸了锅，有点赞的，有恭喜的，更多是问到底是谁的，熟一点的问是哪里的小伙子，一般熟的问是哪位美女，他全部都没回。

倒是蛋哥的微信很快跳了出来：是小西吗？

裴昊：嗯

蛋哥：卧槽，居然被你给追回来了！！小西真是瞎了眼……

裴昊：……

裴昊：滚

蛋哥：开玩笑的，祝你们永浴爱河永结同心情比金坚白头偕老早生贵子……

裴昊：……

一天后，裴昊在会议室里等傅冰开会，打开手机随便浏览了一眼，刚好看到宋婉琴在那条状态下的留言：妈妈希望你幸福。

傅冰推开门的时候，发现常年冷着脸的裴昊盯着手机，眼眶湿润，不禁疑惑地问了一句：“哎，这是怎么了？”

“没什么，”裴昊抹了抹眼角，关上手机，“风有些大。”

“哦……”傅冰瞅了一眼旁边紧闭的窗户，没揭穿他。

异国恋，光听这三个字就知道不容易，更何况他们之间隔了一整个太平洋。

裴昊隔一段时间就会想办法去美国看他，莫西也不是觉得见面太频繁，只是觉得他这样飞来飞去太累。有一次裴昊明明胃病犯了，还是坚持坐了十多个小时的飞机过来，一到家就疼得躺到了沙发上，莫西又急又气，却拿他没办法。

喂了药，熬了粥，一口口送进裴昊嘴里，见人渐渐好起来了，莫西没憋住还是发了一顿火：“你再这么不惜命我看我们还是暂时分开一下好了。”

他的本意是让裴昊多注意身体，不要为了他冒这种险，万一在飞机上有个三长两短怎么办，可是话一到裴昊耳朵里就只剩下后半句，变成了莫西想和他分开。

一句话哽在喉咙，不知道该怎么开口，裴昊霎时就红了眼。

莫西愣住，自觉刚刚说错了话，冷静了一下，抱住沙发上的人哄了会儿，裴昊才安心地睡了过去。

两个月后，莫西实习的那家公司给他发了转正offer，工资自然是比以前在国内的那份高出不少，几年前的他还是个恋爱脑，遇到这种事肯定会毫不犹豫把裴昊放在第一位，这次他考虑了很多，未来事业发展、亲情、还有爱情。

最后莫西决定回国发展，是很多方面权衡下来的结果€€€€他想看着肖€€€€长大，他想进一家游戏公司，他不想裴昊再这么辛苦地跑来跑去。

2019年的夏天，顶着六月艳阳，莫西拖着几个大箱子回到了X市，他和裴昊换了一个大点的房子，再次回归同居生活。

蛋哥约了几个以前的好朋友，给莫西接风洗尘。他私底下问裴昊要不要请付言，裴昊想了想还是觉得算了，怕莫西有想法。

那天裴昊在度假山庄里订了一套房，玩游戏的玩游戏，唱歌的唱歌。他和莫西在后厨随便做了几个小菜，蛋哥推门进去的时候，莫西在洗菜，裴昊一只手搂着他的腰，一只手往他嘴里喂葡萄。

“哎哟我去……”蛋哥赶紧捂住眼睛关上门，恨不能立马拉着女朋友逃离这散发着恋爱酸臭气息的现场。

都是多年老友，当年一起聚会时也带过家属，八年在弹指一挥间就匆匆溜去了，毕业工作，时过境迁，一圈看下来，竟然只有裴昊身边还是原来那个人。

不得不感叹命运的光怪离奇。

几个想跟莫西敬酒的，都被裴昊挡过去了，大家开玩笑揶揄裴昊越来越会护人了。

喝到兴致上了，有人开始细数裴昊在和莫西分手那几年做过的蠢事€€€€喝醉了在大街上喊莫西的名字，偷偷摸摸飞去美国惹得裴易心在公司年会上骂他……

裴昊也不恼，桌下面一只手牵着莫西，偶尔辩解几句，大部分时候都默认了。

莫西浅笑听着，没有太意外，毕竟裴昊当着他的面做过更疯狂的事。

饭吃到一半，有人发了朋友圈，被付言看到了。他把裴昊蛋哥当兄弟，心里多少有点不太舒服，但也明白这不是他该出现的场合，所以只是默默给裴昊发了条微信说恭喜。

后来莫西知道这事，大大方方的让裴昊叫人过来。

裴昊抹了一把额角溢出的汗，不知道他说的是正话还是反话。

莫西眉头一挑，也不避讳：“要是我还纠结你们以前的事，现在我们就不会坐在一起。”

当然最后付言也没来，倒是几个月后他老婆产下第一胎，关系好的都去探望了，莫西也和裴昊买了一些小孩的东西送了过去。

北城的路拆了又建，很多地地道道的大排档宵夜消失在拔地而起的高楼里，城市日新月异，没有人能跳脱时代的发展独善其身。

有一次莫西路过金宇原来开的那家私房菜馆，发现这家餐馆也在即将被拆迁的那条巷子里，据说金宇走后这家店被人盘下了，因为之前很火所以新店主没改名。木质的招牌已经落灰，上面刻着两个具有年代感的篆体字€€€€诗意。

莫西突然有些后知后觉，好像明白了当时金宇取这个店名的意思：诗意€€€€思意，思念程意。

然而他再也不能验证这个想法，因为金宇好像从世界上消失了一样，毫无音讯。有人说在西南小镇上遇到过他推着一个坐在轮椅上的漂亮男孩，男孩应该就是程意；也有人说他没有找到程意，一直在约定好的北欧小国等他。

当然这些都是传说，不知真假。

Chapter 61

Wed, 25 Mar 2026 05:09:08 +0000

Chapter 61#

第61章最后，作者碎碎念

终于，完结了！

基本上是大团圆结局，我虽然中意狗血虐心，但是看不得BE。

想给很多老读者道个歉，这篇文首发长佩旧站，中途断更了两年半，导致我回来时很多读者都忘了前面的剧情，没让你们干净利落地一口气看完，很抱歉很抱歉（鞠躬.jpg）。

我之前说过，这篇文是在脑子一热的情况下开的，没有大纲，没有计划，想到哪里写到哪里，文笔比较稚嫩，到了后期我自己也发现了一些人物刻画上的硬伤。这不是一个很好的故事，古早狗血梗，每个角色都有这样那样的问题，主角的爱情更是千疮百孔，好几次我差点写不下去。

所以，谢谢你们能看完这篇番外比正文长的文，特别是那些从三年前就开始，一直追到现在的小天使们，没有你们的鼓励，我大概是写不完这篇文的。

不知道这篇文的读者们都多大，有没有谈恋爱。我想说的是，千万不要被文里的人物影响了三观，现实生活中遇到裴昊这种人就早点撤吧，你们值得更好的人，青春应该是美好而生动的，不要指望一个现在不爱你的人历经千帆后回来爱你。这样的人或许有，但是极少，不值得你用宝贵的时间去赌。

最初开这篇文的时候，我给自己定的目标是有十个读者能看完，现在无论在新站还是旧站都超过了这个数，收货了很多意料之外的喜欢，小破文能让你们笑一笑，哭一哭，就够了，我也算对自己付出的时间精力有个交代。

下篇文还在计划中，没想好是写秦子然，还是另外一篇强强架空文，无论写哪篇，大概率都不会这么狗血了，未来一两个月会开始更，想好了会在微博上通知大家~

忘了在哪里看过这句话了：心里有一个世界，但现实没有，所以就自己去创造了。这就是我写作的初衷。

最后，山高水远，我们有缘再见。