Chapter 4#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-18 21:31:01

Let’s talk about the last straw that broke the camel’s back.

After starting work, holidays are really pitifully few, not to mention I’m in my first year of employment. The holidays are so few that they’re gone after a few naps. Annual leave is only five days, plus the weekend, a total of seven days. I planned to go to a quiet place alone with A, just to see the sea and bask in the sun.

One day A took me to have dinner with a few of his university friends. They were his better friends from university. There was a guy named D that day, very sociable, the kind who was good at organizing activities in the student union. He said B happened to be back, so why don’t everyone take their annual leave together this year and go on a trip together, otherwise there won’t be a chance later. They had traveled together once or twice in university and had a good relationship. Anyway, I didn’t go those times because B was there, and A didn’t invite me.

Except for me, everyone was quite happy and seemed to want to go. I was very awkward. Selfishly, I didn’t really want to go, but it wasn’t good to be the only one singing a different tune. After all, A’s friends, including B, were usually quite nice to me. I didn’t say whether I would go or not at the time, just said let’s see when the time comes. D knew A and I were a couple, but he met A and the others relatively late, so he probably didn’t know the complicated relationship between A, B, and me. D kept urging me. He was really good at talking, basically bringing out the drinking table talk, saying if I didn’t go, I found them troublesome or something. I said my schedule didn’t match theirs, he said it’s okay we can adjust. Later, to shut him up, I had to nod.

A saw that I didn’t want to go. On the way home, he asked me if it was okay if he went and I didn’t. Because his job is special, with off-seasons and peak seasons, he could take another leave during the off-season to accompany me. I thought his off-season would be another two months away. A obviously wanted to go, and D had said all that. If I didn’t go, would it seem like I was putting on airs? I hardened my heart and decided to go.

This hardening of the heart was good; this trip led to the breakup.

There were six of us, going to some island. A and I stayed together, B and C stayed together, D and his girlfriend stayed together. The first two days were fun. During the day we swam and surfed by the beach, and at night everyone ate seafood, drank beer, and played games together. A and B didn’t have any special contact, really just like ordinary friends.

Even Grimm’s Fairy Tales wouldn’t dare to write something so perfect.

On the third day, A wanted to go diving. D and his girlfriend didn’t go. ABC and I went diving (why does it feel like I went diving with a bunch of English letters?? (Horror.jpg)). Forget it, let’s change names. We usually call C “Brother Egg”, quite funny and knows how to take care of people; let’s call B “Fu Yan”, a very gentle and refined person. A is still called A, didn’t prepare a name for him.

Normally I can snorkel for at least two hours and deep dive for half an hour. Maybe I ate too much seafood the night before and had diarrhea, so I was a bit weak. That day I was exhausted after snorkeling for half an hour. A and Brother Egg still wanted to go deep diving, so I said I would go back to the shore first. Fu Yan said he couldn’t do it either and wanted to go back with me. The staff on the island came to pick us up. They drove those jet skis. Fu Yan and I each sat on one. I don’t know if the person driving Fu Yan’s jet ski was new or drunk, but he drove very fast and wanted to make a cool 180-degree sharp turn. As a result, he crashed into my jet ski. The fronts of the two jet skis collided. It didn’t hit the people, but I was thrown out by the impact instantly, and so was Fu Yan. Both jet skis flipped over. Fu Yan, the two jet ski drivers, and I all fell into the water.

Actually, everyone was wearing life jackets, so we wouldn’t sink. As long as the vehicle didn’t hit anyone, it wasn’t a big deal. But this sudden impact, and not knowing where we were in the middle of the sea, made me a bit panicked. I can swim, but at that time, I didn’t know what was wrong with my right leg, I couldn’t exert strength. I just flailed my two hands and kicked with my left leg, swallowing a lot of water.

A and Brother Egg were about 50 meters away from us. I knew they were coming over on a speedboat. Just as I was struggling and swallowing water, I heard A’s voice. He was shouting Fu Yan’s name, shouting hoarsely three times. So that’s what his voice sounds like when he’s nervous about someone.

When the yacht got near us, A jumped into the water with a splash and swam towards Fu Yan. Every stroke he took towards that side, I felt like he stabbed another knife into my heart. My two hands held tightly in the water, trembling uncontrollably, and tears gushed out defenselessly. My whole body suddenly lost its mechanism of movement. I froze in the water, letting the life jacket drag me, drifting wherever the seawater went. I didn’t know if it was tears or seawater on my face.

I had never seen A panic like that for anyone.

Usually, we were intimate and lingering, but only at the moment of life and death crisis can love and hate be seen thoroughly.

Otherwise, why would people say true feelings are revealed at the critical moment of life and death? I think it’s distinguishing true love at the critical moment of life and death.

I had only one thought at that time: I can’t go on with A anymore.

[1st Floor] Lin Lin Lin Lin: WTF!!! Tell! A! To! Die! Okay?!

[2nd Floor] Wang Xiao Chi Dian San: What the hell??? I thought only novels would have this kind of plot (Shock.jpg).

[3rd Floor] See You Monday: Can this thread stop talking about A? It makes me want to vomit (Vomit.jpg) (Vomit.jpg) (Vomit.jpg). OP, really, isn’t it good for us to find a new boyfriend?

[4th Floor] broken Qin: OP, you are carrying the entire Eurasian Steppe on your head (implying being cheated on/cuckolded).

[5th Floor] Once In A Century yu: Opposite sex advises breaking up, same sex advises… wait, this question advises breaking up. Scumbag not dating (Goodbye.jpg).

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[11th Floor] Carrie: Am I the only one who finds it funny that OP didn’t give A a name? I can feel OP’s look of disdain across the screen 2333333.

[10th Floor] Xiao Li Zi Your Mom Calls You To Receive Award: Life is short, of course, choose to forgive him! (A green light.jpeg).

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[15th Floor] Elisa_victory: Xiaoxi, what kind of boys do you like? Sisters will find for you.

[16th Floor] Uncle Abai: Xiaoxi, what kind of boys do you like? Brothers will find for you.

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-19 20:17:07

I watched A’s back as he went to save Fu Yan, in a trance. My heart seemed to be paralyzed by something. I didn’t even notice Brother Egg jumping down to fish me out. Brother Egg asked me several times if I was okay, but I didn’t respond to him. Brother Egg said he was startled at the time, seeing me floating quietly on the sea surface, neither struggling nor moving, not answering when asked. He thought I was knocked unconscious until he saw my eyes were red and my face was covered in tears.

When A grabbed Fu Yan, he seemed to finally realize that Fu Yan wasn’t the only one who fell into the water. He looked towards me and called my name. His tone seemed to carry a bit of anxiety, but of course, it couldn’t compare to the heart-wrenching scream when he called Fu Yan.

Fu Yan and I fell into the water about 10 meters apart. Two professional lifeguards in the sea area also jumped down, one on my side and one on Fu Yan’s side. I don’t know if A suddenly realized something. He probably said a few words to Fu Yan, confirmed he was okay, handed him to the lifeguard, and swam towards me.

I really didn’t want him to come over. I was crying too miserably at that time. I knew in my heart that this was the last time I would cry for this person, but precisely because it was this last and only time, I didn’t want him to discover that these tears were shed for him. I didn’t want him to see my most humble wretchedness at the very end.

These tears were a farewell to A, a farewell to that innocent and ignorant Xiaoxi who was desperate in love, and also a farewell to my five years of dating where bitterness was greater than sweetness. I didn’t invite A to attend this farewell ceremony, nor did I need to. I could digest it cleanly by myself silently, and then find a morning with gentle dawn or a sunny afternoon to start over.

I tried my best to hold back the urge to cry, turned my head to look at Brother Egg, and when I opened my mouth, my voice was still trembling, asking him if he could take me onto the boat. When A was about to swim over, Brother Egg and a lifeguard had almost pulled me onto the speedboat. Fu Yan and the other two jet ski masters who fell into the water were also almost up.

I didn’t feel it when I was in the water, but as soon as I got on shore, I felt a piercing pain coming from my right ankle. Any slight movement made me frown in pain. I didn’t know which tendon was pulled. I remember getting snagged somewhere on the side of the jet ski when I was thrown out. The lifeguard tried to take a look at it for me. As soon as he grabbed my foot, I gasped in pain. A shouted a bit angrily from the side, “Be gentle, be gentle, he’s in pain.” I don’t know what he had to be angry about. Didn’t he know that the fact that the first person he thought of at the critical moment was Fu Yan was what hurt me the most?

Heart-wrenching pain, unforgettable.

Fu Yan’s right arm was injured, scraped with a bloody mark, but otherwise seemed fine. We had to go ashore immediately to find a doctor.

On the way back, the atmosphere among the four of us was very awkward. Everyone had their own thoughts. Brother Egg took the initiative to take care of Fu Yan. A sat next to me. He had been talking to me since getting on the speedboat, asking me how I was, if it hurt. I didn’t pay much attention to him, closed my eyes, and leaned weakly against the seat. The midday sun was so bright it made me dizzy. A reached out his arms to hug me. I wanted to dodge, but he noticed. He hugged tighter. I didn’t have the strength to struggle with him, so I let him hug me. A’s mouth was close to my ear, saying over and over again, “It’s okay, it’s okay.” I didn’t know if he was comforting me or comforting himself.

[1st Floor] Xin You Zai Yan: Break up quickly, break up quickly, I’ve been waiting for this moment for a long time!

[2nd Floor] Passerby A B C D: Xiaoxi be good, don’t cry. Let’s find a tall, rich, and handsome guy who is good in bed to start over! Piss off scumbag A!

[3rd Floor] blue.: Heartache.

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[8th Floor] Responsible For Being Beautiful In Old Li’s Family: Sob sob sob Our Xiaoxi finally let go!! So gratified and moved (Crying loud.jpg).

[9th Floor] Once In A Century yu: So annoyed with A. Since he chose the “white moonlight” when saving people, he should go hug the “white moonlight” and comfort the “white moonlight” after getting on shore. Coming to flirt with our Xiaoxi again, is he sick? A slap first and then a candy? Oh yo yo, so impressive. Does he think he is Takeshi Kaneshiro or Daniel Wu?

[10th Floor] Sa Qi: Even if he has the face of Takeshi Kaneshiro and Daniel Wu, being such a scumbag, I would still choose to break up.

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[17th Floor] XOXO: OP, I waited all day and you only updated this little bit? Catching you acting shamelessly, not allowed to leave (Acting spoiled.jpg).

[18th Floor] Xiao Li Zi Your Mom Calls You To Receive Award: The person above highlighted the key point. Xiaoxi is not allowed to leave (Quickly listen to the stormy calls in my heart)!!!