Chapter 17#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-23 21:27:57

One day after work, I saw a car of the same model as Pei Hao’s downstairs at my workplace. I panicked, thinking he came again? When I saw the license plate clearly, I couldn’t help but mock myself. Pei Hao said “I love you” and you took it seriously. He was just putting on a show to see if you were still that stupid, ready to pour your heart out to him just because he said a few nice words.

Seeing that I really wouldn’t go back, Pei Hao had played enough and acted enough. Feeling bored, he stopped. Did he really drive for hours every weekend just to say “I like you” to me? It’s not filming an idol drama. His time is precious, and he has to spare a lot of time to take care of Fu Yan.

My work in Group 3 is relatively easy, unlike in City Y where I often worked overtime. But to be honest, if I wanted an easy job, I wouldn’t have entered this industry in the first place. I think while young, I should learn more and accumulate some experience, but there isn’t much to learn in Group 3. And I really want to do game programming. Since breaking up with Pei Hao, I often suffer from insomnia all night, and my mental state is not very good. I found that reading books and watching videos to learn programming by myself after work helps me fall asleep.

Moreover, my dad mentioned to me many times that he hopes I go to the US to study again and accompany him for a few years, and he will pay. Before, because of my mom and Pei Hao, I never considered it. And I always thought my sister wouldn’t support it because she doesn’t get along with my dad. Who knew that after my dad came back and mentioned it during the New Year, my sister also kept persuading me. She said she and my brother-in-law are living well, and I have no worries, so why not go out and see the world if there is a chance.

I think this is also a path worth considering. If our company doesn’t give me the opportunity to do game programming, I will find opportunities to get in touch with it myself.

On the weekend, I received a call from a stranger. It was Jin Yu from that private kitchen restaurant. He said their restaurant was going to launch some new dishes and wanted to find some customers to taste them. Only after getting feedback and making improvements can they be added to the menu. Jin Yu asked if I had time next week and could help him taste a few dishes and give some advice.

It was the first time I heard that a restaurant needs customers to taste before launching new dishes. However, the taste of their food has always been good. Maybe they are more particular about cooking, and the process is more complicated. Actually, apart from work, I basically have nothing to do, so I picked a day randomly.

“By the way, you can bring your girlfriend to eat with you.” Jin Yu said on the other end of the phone.

Me, who has never had a girlfriend: “Can I still taste if I don’t have a girlfriend?”

“Haha, yes, yes.” Jin Yu laughed over there, “Then I’ll eat with you, otherwise it’s boring to eat alone.”

“If you are busy, it doesn’t matter if I eat alone. Or I can ask other friends to accompany me.”

“It’s okay, not busy. See you in a few days.”

“Okay.”

On the day of tasting, Jin Yu was not there. The waiter took me to a small private room and served me four or five dishes, saying they were all their new dishes. I looked at them, impossible for one person to finish.

After serving the last dish, the waiter stood beside me and said respectfully: “Boss Jin said you eat first, he will arrive in a while.”

I looked confused: “Ah? Boss Jin? Isn’t he the foreman?”

The waiter pursed her lips and smiled: “He is our boss, not the foreman.”

I thought carefully about Jin Yu’s attire the two times I saw him. Indeed, he didn’t look like a foreman at all, but rather like someone in charge. But would a restaurant owner personally call customers to come for tasting? I couldn’t help but think of what Jing Ling said during the last meal, but it was still hard to believe.

I had some doubts in my heart, so I asked the waitress: “Do you always invite guests to taste like this when launching new products?”

The girl nodded: “Yes, before launching new products every time, the store will invite some regular customers to taste.”

“Then does your Boss Jin accompany all guests to taste?” I continued to ask.

“Of course not, Boss Jin also has many things to do.” The girl shook her head, “He invited you to eat probably because he feels a connection with you.”

True, I’m not someone with outstanding looks and temperament like Pei Hao who can make people fall in love at first sight. Jin Yu seems to have good conditions in all aspects. How could Jing Ling be right so easily? He probably just thinks I’m easy to get along with. Besides, how could it be so easy to meet a gay guy? After thinking for a long time, I still felt I was being sentimental.

I ate halfway and was worrying about whether to pack the rest home when Jin Yu came in, travel-worn.

As soon as he stepped into the room, he apologized to me: “Sorry, got delayed by something.”

“It’s okay, I said you don’t need to bother if you are busy.” I looked up at Jin Yu and found that he changed his usual simple casual style, dressed in high spirits, wearing a finely tailored suit, with a layer of hair gel on his hair, combed into a retro oil head look. He looked like he just came from some formal occasion. I couldn’t help teasing, “Boss Jin, did you just finish meeting the president?”

“Exactly. Halfway through the meeting, I told the president that I have an important guest waiting for me, I have to go first.” Jin Yu took off his suit jacket, unbuttoned the cuffs of the shirt inside, and followed my words, “Sigh, you don’t know how disdainful the president looked at me.”

I grinned, finding him quite funny, and pointed to the food saying: “Eat quickly, too much, I can’t finish it alone.”

The waiter served a set of tableware. Jin Yu introduced each dish to me one by one, saying they were prepared for the Mid-Autumn Festival new menu, and asked for my opinion. I haven’t done much research on food, so I roughly talked about my feelings about each dish.

Talking and talking, we started chatting about everything, getting to know each other. This restaurant is Jin Yu’s side business. He seems to have to negotiate contracts in the company during the day. I didn’t ask specifically. Anyway, I felt he was quite busy. After a meal, I found Jin Yu was very talkative and could make you laugh many times. He is the kind of person who is very good at adjusting the atmosphere at the dinner table. After the meal, Jin Yu said he felt my personality matched his and wanted to be friends. I always had a good impression of him, so we added each other on WeChat.

When leaving, Jin Yu wanted to drive me back. I felt it was not good to trouble him and insisted on taking the subway myself. Jin Yu had to give up.

Walking to the door of my house, I found a figure squatting on the ground. That figure was so familiar that I couldn’t be more familiar with it. Pei Hao disappeared for half a month, right? Just when I thought I wouldn’t see him again, he appeared at my door again. I couldn’t help rubbing my forehead, headache. Is he ever going to end?

“Xiaoxi!” Seeing me, Pei Hao stood up excitedly from the ground, wanted to give me a hug, but I pushed him away.

“We haven’t seen each other for a long time. I miss you every day.” Pei Hao looked at me deeply and said, “Xiaoxi, have you thought of me?”

“No.” I looked at him indifferently.

Saying I haven’t thought of him is fake. More than five years of time, someone I loved so seriously, how can I forget just like that? Every day after finishing work and closing my eyes, what emerges in my mind is often the bits and pieces of the five years. How deeply engraved the love was, now the pain is equally engraved.

But there is still a long way to go in life. Five years is only a small part of a long life. Besides love, there are too many things worth cherishing. In this mire named Pei Hao, no matter how deep I sank, no matter how much price I have to pay, I must struggle to climb out and start the next journey of life without hesitation.

Pei Hao was pierced by my icy answer. He grabbed my hand and trembled obviously when I said the word “No”.

“I brought your favorite crab roe soup dumplings from City Y this morning.” Pei Hao looked up at me, and only then did I realize his eyes were full of fatigue, “But it might be cold now, you need to heat it up.”

“You really don’t have to do this.” I threw off his hand and said lightly, “Eat it yourself, I don’t need it.”

“I’ll just leave it at the door. Take it or not, up to you.” Seeing me turn to leave, Pei Hao grabbed my shoulder, his words carrying some probing and expectation, “I also moved back to City X. I will work here from now on. I go where you go.”

I looked at him puzzled, my tone a bit annoyed: “How long do you want to play this time? How long until you feel enough? Give me a deadline, so I can be mentally prepared.”

“Not playing, it’s not playing.” Pei Hao reached out and gently rubbed my hair, explaining, “I am serious, I love you Xiaoxi.”

I didn’t answer Pei Hao anymore. Entangling with him will never end. I acted as if I didn’t know Pei Hao’s existence. No matter what he said, I ignored him, took out the key to open the door and entered the house, completing a series of actions fluently, locking Pei Hao outside.

I found that humans are strange animals, often comforting themselves and good at self-deception.

When we love someone wholeheartedly, he forgets your birthday, never said I love you, you will find various excuses for him, constantly emphasizing in your heart that he cares about me, just too busy, or his personality is like this.

Wait until one day, when the relationship comes to an end, and he finally says I love you. Looking back, you realize that saying I love you doesn’t take much of his time. He is not too busy to have a few seconds to say those three words, nor is he introverted and bad with words. He just didn’t love.

[1st Floor] party wa: Haha that Jin Yu definitely has ideas about our Xiaoxi (·€€·).

[2nd Floor] Tofu Soup le: As soon as Jin Yu appears, Pei Hao’s presence is so low (Smile.jpg).

[3rd Floor] €€ Gu sign: Consider Jin Yu, Xiaoxi! I think he is not bad!

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[15th Floor] Yu Lei: But I feel Jin Yu gives the impression of a veteran in love… Observe more.

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[19th Floor] I Seem To Have Seen You Somewhere -: I just want to say, Xiaoxi you are so motivated. I just want to lie dead in bed after work, impossible to read books.

[20th Floor] Socialist Core Values: So Xiaoxi will you go abroad?

[21st Floor] [OP] Just Registered A Random Account: Don’t know yet.