Chapter 10#

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-28 00:18:32

Happy New Year everyone, did you watch the Spring Festival Gala? Anyway, I didn’t…

Today I made dumplings with my dad all afternoon, and then my sister and Uncle Li (my dad’s partner, ahem) cooked a dozen dishes. Uncle Li is a master chef, my dad is really lucky. Actually, my sister and my dad have always had a bad relationship. Maybe gathering together today was also to make me happy. In the evening, my brother-in-law also came. 5 people celebrating the New Year together. My house hasn’t been this lively for a long time, happy (€€€€€€€€€€€€)€€€€.

Hope all suffering will become the past in the new year, and everyone will live better and better (I can only think of such cliché blessings €€(д° )ノ).

Finally, another cliché wish for everyone: Good luck in the Year of the Rooster~!

[1st Floor] Is It A Big Model: Happy New Year Xiaoxi!! Forget the scumbag and start a new life!!

[2nd Floor] €€€€ One Knife: Xiaoxi is so warm, indeed came to bless on New Year’s Eve (Heart.jpg).

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[6th Floor] Fuel Saving Grocery Store: The sound of firecrackers and laughter outside is deafening, and I’m still refreshing Xiaoxi’s updates. It’s true love!

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-01-30 21:34:08

Last time I mentioned that I blocked Pei Hao’s WeChat and phone number.

According to Pei Hao’s rhythm of dozens of missed calls an hour, I always felt this matter wouldn’t end.

Sure enough, in the evening I received a call from my sister. Basically, Pei Hao called to probe her, asking if I had returned to City X. My sister initially thought I was just throwing a tantrum and having a small quarrel, but she didn’t expect me to calmly explain twice that Pei Hao and I really broke up.

Hearing that I really wanted to break up this time, my sister couldn’t help asking me: “Did he do something wrong to you? Cheating? Domestic violence? Or cheated you of money?”

“None of them.” I replied in a low voice, “Sister, he never loved me.”

“Ah?” My sister happened to have seen the time when Pei Hao treated me the best, so she was probably a bit confused, “I think he loves you quite a lot. During the time when Mom just passed away, he tried every day to coax you to eat, endured when you lost your temper, and took care of you with all his heart.”

I bit my lower lip and whispered: “That’s because you encountered the time when he treated me the best.”

“Xiaoxi, people in love tend to become very sensitive. Loving the other person too much sometimes makes you overthink. Listening to Pei Hao, he never thought about breaking up with you,” my sister still felt I was thinking too much and changed to a persuasive tone, “If there is a misunderstanding between two people, communicate. Don’t break up easily. How many years have you been together? Do you think you can casually meet someone who can be with you for five years? What if you regret it later?”

I smiled helplessly. Pei Hao is quite good at talking; even my sister came to be his lobbyist.

“Sister, if brother-in-law always had a childhood sweetheart in his heart, and put the childhood sweetheart before you in everything he did, would you still be with brother-in-law?” I asked her somewhat difficultly. Originally, I didn’t plan to mention these things to her.

“You mean…” My sister paused, as if sorting out her thoughts on the other end of the phone, “Pei Hao has someone he has liked for many years?”

“Hmm…” I said hoarsely, “The one he likes is not me.”

“And he puts his childhood sweetheart first in everything he does?” My sister continued to ask.

My voice became even smaller: “Hmm…”

My sister took a breath in disbelief on the other end of the phone and asked with a bit of anger: “Then how could you live with him for five years? Don’t tell me because you love him!”

I was like a child who did something wrong, whispering: “What else could it be because of?”

“…………” My sister was speechless. After a long while, she said emotionally, “Forget it, forget it, people in our family are all silly. Mom was like this, and so are you.”

On the phone, my sister’s voice was a bit hoarse, and we both fell silent. I knew she remembered the unhappy things between our parents in the past, and her emotions surged.

After a while, my sister adjusted her emotions and asked me again: “Then what do you plan to do next?”

“Return to City X. I’m waiting for the company’s reply to see if I can transfer back. If not, I’ll resign.” I answered.

“Coming back is good, coming back is good,” my sister mumbled, “Come home. If anything happens, your brother-in-law and I can help watch over you. Don’t suffer anger from others outside.”

“Hmm…” A sudden sourness surged in my nose, and my eyes turned red.

These past few days, I held on with a breath of air. From falling into the sea to returning to City X and then moving out, I kept telling myself to be strong. It’s just a breakup, something almost everyone has experienced, what’s there to be sad about. But hearing my sister call me home, I suddenly felt a bit uncomfortable.

I found that actually I felt aggrieved. I didn’t understand why he could be with me for five years without loving me. I didn’t understand why I gave my all wholeheartedly but still got such an ending.

I found that actually I was angry. I really wanted to question the Creator, is it only when two people possess equal appearance, status, and wealth that their souls deserve to be placed on an equal scale? Is it that even with five years of love poured in, it is destined not to cross the initial gap between them?

Later one day I suddenly figured it out. Probably because we were not from the same world originally. I was not Pei Hao’s type from the beginning. You and I had no destiny, relying on me holding on all the way. Sometimes you have to admit that destiny, what doesn’t belong to you is not yours. Two people who are worlds apart forcing themselves to be together, inevitably one will end up covered in wounds.

[1st Floor] Mu Mu sunny: Scumbag Pei still knows to call the sister to say good things. Actually, his EQ is not low, he just didn’t care before.

[2nd Floor] Sky_high: Seeing the sister getting emotional, I feel a bit sad.

[3rd Floor] Dreamme: Family, always the warmest and most stable reliance.

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[10th Floor] Thirteenth Master: Xiaoxi, I’m just curious, how long have you been broken up with the scumbag?

[OP] Just Registered A Random Account Posting Time: 2017-02-02 21:24:12

Someone asked how long Pei Hao and I have been broken up. We broke up in June last year, so it’s been more than half a year now.

Continuing to update.

After talking to my sister on the phone, I breathed a sigh of relief. Fortunately, Pei Hao didn’t tell her I was lame, otherwise she would definitely drive to pick me up the next day.

The company allowed me to take a week off. On the third day when I was idling at home, Dabai called.

As soon as the call connected, Dabai shouted excitedly: “My ancestor! I’ve been annoyed to death by your Pei Hao these two days!”

“Hmm? Didn’t you say that day you didn’t know where I was?” I was a bit surprised.

Dabai snorted: “Pei Hao said he checked the elevator video in your building and saw that it was me who picked you up that day. Now he doesn’t believe anything I say.”

I slapped my head: “Ah, forgot about the camera in the elevator.” Besides, I didn’t think he would look for me like this before.

“Do you know how he asked me for you these past few days?” Dabai’s voice sounded like he would rather die, “At first he called me dozens of times. I couldn’t block him like you, so I could only not answer. He insisted on calling until my phone ran out of battery. Then starting from yesterday, he blocked me at the entrance of my workplace. He came again this morning. F***, I’m really afraid my boyfriend thinks I’m hooking up with people everywhere outside!”

“Ah?” I was a bit surprised. Pei Hao’s actions were increasingly beyond my understanding. Actually going to block Dabai at his workplace? What exactly does he want to do? Catch me back to satisfy his sympathy for a disabled person? Or want a partner in bed and I cooperate the best?

As a bystander inexplicably dragged into the water, Dabai was puzzled: “What exactly is going on between you two? Why did the style change suddenly, becoming him pestering you?”

“I don’t understand either,” I blinked innocently on this side and asked: “What did you tell him?”

“What did I say? Of course I said I didn’t know at first!” Dabai seemed to be walking, panting while walking, “But he checked the elevator video so he definitely didn’t believe it. Later I had to say, Xiaoxi seems to have really let go this time, I can’t sell my friend. Then he started blocking me. Oh my god, he was just downstairs at our workplace. Fortunately, our workplace has a back door, I ran from the back door.”

“Don’t worry, I’ll call him,” I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. How come I didn’t discover before that Pei Hao had the attribute of a dog skin plaster, so clingy.

Dabai stopped panting over there, paused and said: “But there is one thing I think he said makes sense: You should at least heal your foot at his place before breaking up.”

I pursed my lips, my attitude firm: “Impossible, I don’t want to see him again.”

“What exactly did he do to you?” Dabai changed to a serious tone and asked me.

I was silent for a moment, not knowing where to start. I opened my mouth, but still didn’t make a sound.

“Forget it,” Dabai sighed, “Say it when you want to say it. But Master, you can’t let him block me every day like this. I can’t offend him easily!”

“Okay I know, I will call him.”

Hanging up the phone, I dug out the blacklist on my phone, feeling a bit annoyed. I haven’t been doing well these few days after moving out from Pei Hao’s place. The company gave me a week off. I had nothing to do, dragging this leg, and couldn’t go out shopping to relax. Alone at home, I would accidentally think of Pei Hao.

The calmness during the breakup seemed like an anesthetic taken for self-disguise. After a long time, the effect wore off, and all the problems reappeared.

Rationally, I knew very well that we had broken up and I should forget him. But every cell and every function in my body remembered him. I had to admit that I would suddenly miss him very much. Closing my eyes, I seemed to hear him whispering Xiaoxi in my ear. Looking up, I seemed to see him leaning next to me holding a computer watching NBA. Turning around, I seemed to feel his warm broad arms hugging me tightly.

Every bit of the past now is like thousands of small thorns, falling into my body. If I’m not careful, I get pricked, pulling a nerve that once had feelings for him again. Pei Hao is like a poison, turning into air, densely existing in the air everywhere around me.

But, so what? One shouldn’t live in a failed relationship for a long time, otherwise it is disrespect to your long life.

I dialed Pei Hao’s number. He picked up within a few seconds.

“Xiaoxi…” Pei Hao’s voice was hoarse. I could hear his mood was very low.

My tone was not very good: “Don’t go bother Dabai anymore.”

“Then tell me where you are.” Pei Hao’s tone was firm, seeming to allow no rebuttal.

A nameless fire rose in my heart. Why does he have to appear intermittently, pretending to care about me very much, making my mood that had finally calmed down a bit ripple for him again.

I said coldly: “Can you be more mature? I said it many times, we broke up. Don’t look for me anymore!”

“Xiaoxi…” Hearing me speak to him so coldly and angrily for the first time, Pei Hao said bitterly, “I just want to see you once and explain clearly to you face to face.”

“I don’t need an explanation!” I said in a deep voice, “Pei Hao, you can have whatever kind of person you want. You don’t love me at all. If you break up with me today, you can find someone better than me everywhere tomorrow. Stop making a fuss, okay?”

“I can’t let go. Everywhere I look when I close my eyes is you,” Pei Hao said sadly and pleadingly, “Xiaoxi, I don’t want anyone but you. Believe me…”

Believe your hot and cold feelings? Or your infatuation with someone else?

I ignored Pei Hao’s words directly and said: “Pei Hao, if you go bother Dabai again, even if you find me in the future, I won’t say a word to you.”

“Okay…” Pei Hao’s voice trembled slightly, “I’ll find you myself. I will find you.”

Hearing his promise not to bother Dabai anymore, I hung up the phone, mentally exhausted.

[1st Floor] 101st Bun: Abuse Scumbag Pei to tears. Xiaoxi don’t be mentally exhausted, I give you a loving hug €€

[2nd Floor] Wang Wang Little Dog Wang: Xiaoxi also wrote out my feelings when I was heartbroken… The most fearful thing is when you want to forget someone, and that person always shamelessly intervenes in your life, making you never able to forget completely.

[3rd Floor] Sui Qing You Lou: I just wanted to say why Xiaoxi could let go so calmly suddenly. It turns out he still feels sad alone in private (Cry.jpg).

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[12th Floor] Eva-reda: Why do I feel Pei Hao is a bit pitiful… Feel like he really realized his feelings for Xiaoxi, but Xiaoxi has no hope for him anymore.

[13th Floor] Brightest Egg In The Night Sky: Regarding the opinion of the person above, I can only say Scumbag Pei deserves it.

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[20th Floor] Late Stage Procrastination: Nothing, I just came to simply confess to Xiaoxi! Just hope you are happy every day like this!